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This blog is not for anyone but me - it is a history of awaking for myself only so no comments need be made. 

It is October 23, 2011 - NW Indiana - a robin came to me today.  He/she just sat there looking at me with the dog and cat walking along the hill line leading to the river below.  As soon as I tried to connect with it - it flew away - no message except I am here - always with you - never forget.... 

With the Scorpio new moon coming I am very sad/emotional/blah so that was a weird thing.  I had to cancel my astrology class today because like so many people I do not have any $$$.  I did not get to go to my Reiki Master (in-person) training because I do not have any money.  I could go on - but i think I get it - I DO NOT HAVE AND $$$....  As an Aries/Taurus/Cancer - $$$ is something that lets me do the things I want to do.  I actually give it away as an energy exchange every chance I get.  I should be more frugal but it is sooooo restrictive to hold it all back.  I once heard an astrologer say " a grand trine in water is so aggravating because they think - "God will provide""  Yep grand trine in water here and yes I think God will provide me with a way to grow, the money to do it, and the ability to help others.  Patience is my middle name, as much as I would love to smack some people upside the head I do not - I just bless them and keep going.  Now that being said I am tired of waiting - LOL  I can feel something in the distance, I cannot touch it yet but I know it's there and I'm afraid it's going to be painful, for my highest good, but I am dreading it never the less.  As much as I want change - I never embrace it - I am always the one kicking and screaming until it's over - then I say whew that wasn't so bad.  Hopefully this next big change will be the same.
  As I surround myself with my circle of light I send blessings to myself - after all this is for me and no one else....