Oy - Oy - Oyyyyyyy

As I sit here willing myself to get up and clean my house for 2012 - I think hummmmm - what do I envision for myself this coming year - then I think heck - nothing I (my ego) has envisioned for myself  in 2011 has happened - so I'm just going to go with the flow on this coming year - plan for some nice things and let it go - if it is meant to be, by the grace of God it will be.  Although my most important prayers have always been answered - my family is healthy, we are OK, I can  hear god, I am at peace....

As I begin to write this blog - 3 crows have come to sing me a song - the magic crows posess is amazing - so I gave them my wish for 2012 - abundance, good health, travel, time and love...

I spent this morning planning the next 2 years with me momma and me daughter - vacations - Ireland?  Rhinelander?  Florida?  all are in the works - and they will happen, by the grace of God - Mother and Father God....

My thoughts are kind of lazy this week - like my body - it is truly a time for reflection and letting go of all the expectations we put upon our selves.  I am at an in-between part of my life - unwilling to go back but unsure of my next step forward - so I will wait just a little bit longer - busy my hands with some menial work - and let my mind go silent...  for the next step is the step of divine inspiration awaits me - for those with ears to hear....

Peace to you this Holiday season -
 whether Jesus was a Pisces or a Capricorn - lol
(it seems Mary Magdalane was an Aries right on the cusp with plenty of Pisces to keep her connected to God.)
 We celebrate and honor this man who spoke only of love - being the highest expression to god... 

Let us all intend love for 2012 to all humans, animals, plants, water, earth, minerals, air, planets, stars, universe - even if for only one second of 2012 may we all feel it in complete synchroicity - the vibration of love xoxoxo

Staying in the Now

I love the frequency of the Christmas season - now when I say that you think - hey - it only comes once a year - right but no I mean the vibration of the season the "frequency" as in where you set your dial - as above so below....

Although yesterday, I feel off the wagon, and let myself slip into feeling sorry for myself - lonely and just plain sad.  I am like a great big "Tesla Generator" - the universe keeps showing me all these wonderful things to do, see, be....  but i am just stuck here watching my beautiful grandchildren - unable to tear myself away for fear I will miss something - I love them so much - I want to be there for them - yet I also want to do fun things - travel, take classes, hang around with high vibrational people.

 Back to "Tesla"  zap - zap - " A trip to Avalon"  shock - shock - zap - a trip to the pyramids - zap - shock - zap - CBR coaching classes - zap - shock - zap   ...  OK you get the idea...  There is so much to do - see - be in this world, I think I could do that - but do I really want to?  (Start this one whining.....)  But it costs a lot of money.......  (OK, stop whining)  hahahaha.  I know money is just energy - but I have become very selective on where I get energy from - which is probably a bad thing - I just want to make sure it is the right energy - (there I go judging again )- OK, maybe the right intentional energy - like when I worked at a bank and they were so greedy trying to get everyone buried in debt - so my branch could make their "numbers" - we can't lose focus of the intent.  OK I am rambling....  LOL

It is hard to look to the future - and stay in the present - I have been reading my 2012 horoscopes for the last week - first thing I check for is possible dates I may win lotto - LOL - but then I watch for dates of happiness and good energy - well it seems I will have those - but next years theme is "patience" argh - razafratza - man,  I thought someday this patience thing would finally be over - after all I am an Aries - so feeling very bummed out and somewhat disillusioned by all the work I have been doing on myself I decided to turn it over to my "circle of light".

As I laid in my bathtub - with no light but a red candle, Monks chanting healing words, I released all my expectations on what will be - and turned it over for guidance.  Just relax and release - maybe that's what patience really is - just knowing everything is going to be OK - no matter what - Que Sera, Sera
 - what every will be will be......   Sometimes what the universe has in store for us is better......

When I got out of the tub -  I went into the kitchen and there in my front yard was Buddha eating from the bird feeder - Buddha is a deer that comes to eat at my house sometimes - reminding me to be gentle, kind and loving - especially to myself... the universe is an abundant place and all energy you put out comes back around - even if it is bird food......

Oh and if you wanna have your own Tesla Generator check it out : http://howtobuildateslagenerator.com/articles/learn-how-to-build-a-tesla-generator-and-go-off-the-grid-forever/
Cool - ha

12 in 1 = 2012

"The Merkaba" - twelve gates of light around a center still point - "you"!!!! You are the conduit for the energy between the higher dimensions and earth - awaken starseeds - come into 2012 - bring your family of light with you - in love - in joy - in peace.

The illustration on the left is from http://www.newearthevolution.com/.

Meg Benedicte - is a starseed who uses vortex energy to access the 5D and beyond.  I love how well she articulates the energy - she is another awesome lightworker that I follow.

Through this merkaba I am seeding my intentions for 2012 - with of course divine energy, crystalline energy and locking it into the crystalline grid for earth gaia.  

The sacred geometry of 12 - now when ever anyone mentions the word - geometry - I break out in a cold sweat thinking - how am I every going to remember all those terms - just like Algebra it seems like a lot of work for something with a variable answer.  I prefer something with solid - measurable conclusions - but of course that is just my ego wanting to judge - and say "see your better" or "see they are better"...

So as I look back upon 2011 - my horoscopes given to me a year ago - did I achieve success?  Money?  Happiness?  Did I have an awesome year?  I would say I have attained "Happiness" - it was a human year - but I released a lot of darkness - now for next year $$$$, Travel, More me time and a higher vibrational living - I am look to these changes w/o harming anyone else and always for my highest good - a smooth transition

- Accepting and Surrendering to my Bliss-

Chomping at the Bit

Do you feel like you are at an important point in your journey?  Are you ready to step of that cliff and fly?  I am more than ready to fly.  It seems now that Mercury is stationed direct and has moved to 3 degrees Sag - I am anxious to roam free - feeling that Sag energy for sure!!!!  My Moon and Chiron are both at 1:11 degrees today in Leo and Pisces....  that's gotta mean something !!!!  But no - maybe it is the asteroid "Mary - (#2779)" transiting my 10th house of fame and fortune - at 15 degrees Capricorn.  Who knows? Did you ever look up the asteroid that has your name - it's pretty cool - mine was named in 1981 - so that was the year I turned 20.   Look on www.astro.com - extended charts - name look up - pretty cool.  If you need more clarification - I will help you - leave a comment below :)

I attended an energy meditation - via the web on 12/12/11 - it was awesome - we opened the 12 portals and brought in energy through all 12 portals into mother earth - it was an awesome experience.  When it was over I was very dizzy and I have not had that much ambition since then.  But I can say that the 11.11 activations are working and the 12.12 wave we just experienced was exhilarating.  We actually seeded our 2012 intentions into that wave - of universal love - some people said theirs out loud and some did not - mostly love-healing for our earth/water/animals/political systems/humans/connection to all.  I did not say mine out loud - because of course I am looking for abundance to travel, fix up my house, move on the the next whatever I am suppose to be doing.  Of course I want all the things said out loud and on a more personal note the things whispered in my head too xoxo   For more info on that   http://www.newearthevolution.com/

I am feeling stuck - maybe I should monetize my blog - I need to get to the future "me"....  I know remember - it's the journey...  But couldn't I just run a little?  Skip?  Gallop?  Oh - Oh back to Sag I go.  I guess I am still at the chop wood, carry water till Jupiter goes direct on Christmas day.

As you can see from my blog today the energies are still wonky - choppy - unable to hold thoughts and form cohesive sentences - ha ha I guess I will have to chomp at the bit a bit longer till I can stabilize my energy and thoughts.  Then - you better look out - cause I'm ready to come thundering out of the gate and run around the track for a while...  xoxo

What's your Frequencey?

Right now - I am listening to Tom Kenyon's vibrational tuning - pituitary, pineal and heart along with a chant  - he offers them all for free at: www.tomkenyon.com.  My granddaughters have grown up listening to toning and meditation songs as they are with me during the day - so it should not surprise me when I see her "Om - ing"  along with the music.  So last week me n "Maui" were om-ing to a Pleiadian tools blogtalk radio show when her Daddy walks in - just a small smile and off about his business he goes.  We are all one -

Feeling emotional?  Well, it's the full moon eclipse at 18 degrees Gemini  -  it's falling in my 2nd house of possessions/money/ wahhhhh.   I am fighting with my ego on this one and every card I pull says I am thinking wrong....   Wishful thinking I guess - I do not know why humans are delivered to earth with an ego if we are not suppose to use it - LOL  We are suppose to transcend our ego's - and then what will be - will be - it reminds me of that scene in pretty woman when "Edward" tells "Vivian" do not answer the phone - she says OK - he calls back - she answers the phone - He said "I told you not to answer the Phone" she say "Then quit calling me!!!!"   That's how I feel - the universe keeps calling me - travel, adventure, dreams realized, a pair of Louboutins and the list goes on.....  Am I not allowed to have those things and be a helper of the people - can't I help people well dressed and well traveled - evidently not.  WHY NOT ??????   I guess I do not know the secret formula or want it bad enough to focus hard enough - an astrologer would say too many trines makes you lazy....  But I do more than most people do - just because I make it look easy - doesn't mean it is.  I certainly hope the next step is shown soon - I know, I know it is here already I just can't see it - time for more chanting - mercury retrograde is over soon - Thank God....  Uranus retrograde is over tomorrow (10th) kinda scary but thank god anyways - all planet in forward motion by Christmas - YAY!!!!  Then maybe I can also move forward....

In closing,  I really wanna go somewhere fun - like Egypt with http://www.pyramidcode.com or Machu Picchu, or the "Avalon Tour" or "Eat Pray Love" tour - so basically a spiritual tour - where like minded people who are on the enlightened path go - yet as I say this- I am nervous, because while I was listening to one of my favorite shows on blogtalk radio about Egypt - the chat room was ridiculing  another light worker who is not like them - which I find very distasteful - because we are all one and I happen to like both.  So mind your manners - work on your own issues - because if you ever met her you would see she really does talk to angels...  and so can you!!!!     xoxo

Everyone has their own path - honor yours and theirs...

Deep thinking in the shower - must be Sag in my 9th

Last night while showering - I know I am usually a bath person but I was too tired and just wanted to jump into bed clean for yoga on Thurs - haha  It see  ...  now it's almost a week later and i am still mulling over this deep thinking topic and not any closer to resolution.  Considering I live with an "Angel", a "God" and the "Greatest Wizard" you would think I would be able to channel their wisdom - but maybe I never really asked the right questions before.
This is what Sag is all about - the questions to what you believe.
I think why do children die?
Why are we so cruel to animals?
Why are we sheep on this Earth?  I believe most people who work for greedy corporations are trying to do a good job - but bound by "their" rules for survival.  It's so sad - that life mimics the matrix on so many levels....  Your taught you cannot have nice things unless your part of the system...  WHAT HAPPENED?  I THOUGHT WE WERE ALL ONE !!!! But sooner or later "they" are going to tell you to sell out - just a little piece at first - than a bigger piece - till all you have left is fear of losing your job - then they got you - Your Fired - hahahaha  or if your lucky you wake up and say I quit <3

In watching this video (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fmMNlmn1DPc&feature=related), death, sickness and illness are a morbid hobby of this healer - to heal, to cure, Reiki, massage, thoughts, affirmations, or traditional medicine of drugs, surgery, therapy.....   I have a relative with cancer at the moment not the first we have had - he has a very bad kind and I think -"what would I do if it was me?"  I would go see John of God - I would go to china and let them heal me - but why, why, why do we have to get old, why do we have to die???  Isn't it kind of selfish to die - leaving your family - is your work done here?   Are we really that primitive of a species that we must die to inspire others around us - to compel them forward in their lives and their souls evolution???

Is this what "Earth School" is all about -  thrusting the soul forward - compressing, suffocation, till we become the shiny diamond - being a carbon based life form - maybe we are all just diamonds in the rough...

let go - a time to slow down

I have seen "the mustard seed" reference 2 times between yesterday and this morning:
1/ http://ellenwhitehurst.tumblr.com/
2/http://youtu.be/FL7DWPhNWzQ

This seems to be the theme of the week leading up to the eclipse on Saturday - have faith, clean your house - physically, mentally and spiritually.  It seems to be a necessary let down of energy from the 11.11 high we were riding for the last month.  I know 11.11 came and then we all felt like the day after Christmas - a big let down.  Some of us were able to keep riding that high for a while longer - but eventually we all must re-land on planet earth.  As Colette (http://www.colettebaronreid.com) says it's time to chop wood and carry water.....  we have to do the mundane, take care of our lives here on earth.

So yes - some days we have to work at being happy - I tend to torture myself with videos on FB or You Tube showing the atrocities of the world - mostly against the animals on this planet.  My stance is that of a witness - and someone who begs the universe to make it stop.  I thank all the animals for their great sacrifice to come here and teach us how to be compassionate.  Maybe it's a sideways way of making myself cry and cleansing my spirit.  I am a tender soul - although most people who know me may not think so - I am strong, resilient - but that does not make me not feel.  I do feel but sometimes I can only let in so much before it is too much - so as usual I seem to be rambling - I need to find a great astrology course to take with a group that I can talk with.  I find I learn the most when I am able to discuss astrology (or whatever I am learning) with people - hear their views - form my own opinions - test theories etc...

OK - let go and let god - I have faith and will do the mustard seed mantra -
 I have to say - Ellen's writings/mantra's/spells whatever you want to call them work more often than not - I did a Buddha one last November for healing and it was so great even my yoga teacher noticed how much my shoulders released - it was a true healing during a dream...  From that time I have asked Buddha to stay in my circle of light ...  with gratitude  xoxo

OK, enough for Monday - remember to clear your chakras, spin out your aura - (33 times if you can), clean up your inside and outside - love yourself - xoxo

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The time between the eclipses - evolve or die

I read many blogs - astrology, reiki, healing, channeling - always blogs of higher consciousness - increased frequencies, uplifting human experiences.  Sometime these experiences come in forms of struggle - we are all human - I write about all my many, many questions to the universe.  Question  myself - constantly - until I give up and just say "I surrender to my highest good"  You see I have Virgo in my 5th house of fun - jeez Mr Details is running my fun - LOL  it figures - in layman's terms I over think everything.

Now I just started reading a new blog yesterday and today she seems to be having a crisis of faith :


http://www.blossomgoodchild.com/index.html?page=BG127nov29.html


I am not judging her as we have all been there - just sending her love for being courageous enough to write about it - to fight with "White Cloud"  to feel his immense love for her.  It is very humbling to witness a persons vulnerability and send it love, resolution, openness to what still may be.  I know she is hurting - her ego, her feelings, where is this coming from - has she absorbed someone elses negativity towards her work - I send her unconditional surrendering love - she will find her way back.

Focus - perception - a person sees/experiences what she focus' on - the world can fall apart but if you surround yourself with the light, higher frequencies of people, uplifting tonal music, you can bear witness to the inequities of the world but you do not have to live there.  Send them light - golden light for their highest good - but do not go on vacation to their place.  Surround yourself with higher vibrational information - if you cannot find any make your own - sing to your angels, your soul, your guides, the planets, the universe, and of course all the elements of earth wind, rain, water, gaia, birds, trees, animals and your fellow humans.

Fellow astrologer - Divine Harmony (she is much more evolved than I am ) noted in her weekly astrology blog this time between eclipses and with Saturn aspects occurring you must evolve or die - paraphrasing of course - ha ha  (here is DH Blog: http://www.divineharmony.org/cosmic-insight/astrology-blog/388-evolution-is-where-its-at )  Always useful divine feminine info in DH blog - xoxo

I am choosing to focus on evolution .... 

How Does it Work???

In checking my daily facebook page - I see "Colombia Killing the Homeless" (http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/colombia-stop-murdering-the-homeless-in-the-name-of-social-cleansing)
of course I signed the petition - but when it came time to add a comment I could not come up with a valid comment...
  My brain was screaming things like
"I never asked to be born"
 "Forgiveness"
"What you do to others will come back to you 10x's",
 "You are your brothers keeper"  ...  
I think what is my role in the world - I sign a petition and add my intention to those who have signed before me - do we make a difference?
 Or is it some big marketing scheme to get to know my views?
 - maybe everything that happens is just to get a reaction........
--- To see if we are awake. ---
 Well, I am awake and overwhelmed by the barbaric, violent, inhuman way we treat each other, the animals, the planet and ourselves.

"The temple of the creator lies within you"  

My brain says 'Do not judge - good or bad" ...
 but who will speak for these souls?????
 Am I too sensitive??? - yes I am - is that bad????
What can I do to constructively change things to a more loving conscious earth experience???
  TV shows killing animals, crocodiles, whales, peoples blood lust for death.
 How much easier is the dark????
  Is it the density of 3D earth that allows the darkness such a hold???
Is this really the HELL that the bible speaks of - a human existence - I do not believe that is true for me.  But I do not know about others - maybe....

What brave souls chose to come to this beautiful  planet  -
I do not have it figured out  -
so for now
 I am just sending divine light......


and awaiting further instructions from the universe xoxoxo

5D energy "Creative elixir of the Universe"

FB post:

M E S

Just back from Walmart - they have marshmallows in peppermint, chocolate, rainbow colors - may I make a suggestion for the Holiday Season - "Brown Sugar Marshmallows"

 for cooking - think of all the things you could make with "Brown Sugar Marshmallows"

Now these small things I may manifest for myself - (like lace-up jeans), are just cool things I wish I had.  Like I told my friends a few years

ago - I am a muse - and sometimes amusing - LOL  I can come up with ideas of things I would like put them out there and poof - the universe

 delivers - sometimes I say oh no not like that, maybe a little more of this and a little less of that - but alterations are always possible once

 the original is made somewhere. 

 We are back to the "Law of Attraction" or "Being the vibration/frequency" , it is so simple it is hard!!!!  It is Focus and Faith -

 If you focus on the good and the love in the world, you will see more of it <3  The same is true of the darkness -

I used to be obsessed (before I learned) with the battle of good and evil, dark and light, god and the devil. 

 Being raised a catholic - new testament catholic - where god is loving and not so vengeful LOL, I found it oh so

interesting to see how people reacted to the  darkness in their lives.  You see we all suffer from "separation" from creator

the moment we are born - some call it original sin - I do not buy that - we came here to bring the creator to "Earth" to make it

better - lighter - more LOVE - less war.   

So this Thanksgiving - honor the creator inside you -

it lives in your heart chakra, balance yourself,

breathe in and out 3 deep breaths repeating the word L-O-V-E with each breath -

stand in the kitchen and spin counter-clockwise 33 times to blow out your aura -

take a salt bath - show the world your "Shiney" self of love and be thankful for all you have - if you think you have nothing think again - .  

Can u read this?  you have eyes to see the beauty of earth,

 I could go on but I think you get it - gratitude.  Every time I put four "!!!!" after a sentence it's to thank my angels,

every time I use three of anything it is to thank all my ancestors and ascended masters, 15/6 grapes for love -

 I make every action I take for myself and the world an intentional action of love, grace and Thanksgiving...  

Do you see spots?

At night when all is quiet and I am watching TV,  I can see spots all over my room - it's like 5D earth is bleeding through - can anyone say AMEN... Finally

So much is going on - triggers, habits, reactions...  clues to what will be, releasing of the past...  I really do not recommend living with two people in your opposite sign - I am aggravating the crap out of them and myself at the same time.  LOL

Back to my posting about the goat - for those few who actually follow along - lol - comments are welcome - I know I said this was for me and it still is - but I am willing to accept comments.

OK, back to the goat - ha ha - I do believe it was now a "Fox", because yesterday when I was watching my three deer eat in my front yard - what do I see trotting across the street quickly, quietly - a fox!!!!  Now I know if I see an animal bringing me a message from nature and I do not get it right the first time - nature is patient with me and lets me see it again.  This is something I have asked for - that all messages get to me, no matter how many times I have to see the sign....  Just give me a sign....  LOL  So off I went to my "Ted Andrews - Animal Speak" book and lo and behold "the fox is "MERLIN"  hahahahaha....  how synchronistic is that - my new cat that is a in-again out- again cat has the exact same name - Merlin!!!!  The fox and Merlin are very close and Merlin used a lot of foxes magic when doing his work undercover.  I was amazed at the message this little fox was bringing me about blending in to do my best work and not being the "squeaky" wheel.  How Merlin was not even known by the people of his time - which also says alot about my life theme with the sun in my 12th house of all that is hidden.  So thank you Merlin (the man and the cat) for your friendship and teachings.
 I am sorry I thought you were a goat - LOL

Mars in Virgo - Trine Jupiter in Taurus and Pluto goes direct

Today Mars in Virgo trine Jupiter in Taurus - Pluto direct - grand trine in earth - rapid manifestations!!!!  Focus on the life you want - Partial Solar eclipse next week in Sag - new moon eclipse - what will I intend?  I am not sure - I think I will just intend "Thy will be Done" - I surrender - not giving up just seeing where spirit takes me without my ego dictating the terms. 
Eclipse - great blog - Sag is your Angel: http://moonplutoastrology.wordpress.com
Mars in Virgo Blog post:
http://soulgarden.me/group/state-of-iam-aries/forum/topic/show?id=2259039%3ATopic%3A940295&xg_source=msg


Now Mars in Virgo - argh -  is what I keep thinking, too much work, too much cleaning, too many details - but I know I will be better for it.  Learning where I need to take better care of myself.  My natal Virgo is in my 5th house of fun - so is my north node - ha ha evidently I need this but I really do not know how to have fun - I have been programed by my cancer moon to think fun is taking care of your family and my Aries sun marches on, while my Taurus rising sign keeps whining "I want nice things"  LOL  Here's to moving forward with grace and love xoxo


I know Mars is energy and motion while Virgo is the details.  Jupiter is expansion and Taurus is earth; Pluto is death (which I pulled the death card today on Colette's site - spooky - http://www.colettebaronreid.com) and Capricorn is business - what does all this mean - for me - not sure yet.  For earth, good things and forward progress, bumpy at times but in the right direction for evolution of the barbaric human species.  Yes I said barbaric - people abusing people, animals, the land, the water, the sky - it sickens me when I turn my focus to these atrocities.  I can barely watch any TV anymore except fairy tales - only the light, focus on bringing this world into 5D light <3

Was that A Goat?

Yesterday as I took the dogs out, listening to "brother wind" while meandering through the yard at my job - out of the corner of my eye I swear I saw a goat in my daughters back yard - jump into the weeds- hummmmm.... interesting.

  Well my family drama has subsided a bit thanks to my Reiki sisters and my circle of light.  But what came from this - an idea for a tattoo for one of my housemates - his idea not mine:

actually two wings on his upper arm wrapping around his shoulder...  Very interesting .....  if you know the story of the Valkyrie it says quite a bit about this sudden desire to transform.  Whew I was thinking I was losing him to the darkness - but the LIGHT is still very strong in this young "Jedi Warrior" xoxoxo

Blessings and Surrender

As above - so below

Can You Hear it?

I am definitely, definitely (rain man - LOL) tuning into a higher sound wave since 11.11.11.  I could hear a mumble from the collective consciousness before but now my antenna is way - I say way- out there.  I am singing songs I haven't heard for ever - hearing choirs of angels singing - hearing grumbling - sometimes it's so loud I cannot hear a person speaking to me in the same room.  Now I am not sure if it is because they are speaking at a different vibration then I am listening or what???  It is "Wonky" (my new word since 11.11)  the world has gone "WONKY" in a good kind of way and I do not want it to stop.  I am wondering if anyone else is noticing this crazy undercurrent of constant chatter - if they are aware of it- maybe it's me, or maybe it's memorex- ha ha - OK, I admit I am wonky today - speeding through my mind - yet still moving in slow 3D earth motion.  Whatever.....  I am riding this one for a while and loving it.  I know the babies I spend the most time with are feeling it too - they draw it out, cry it out, snuggle it out - I believe they have a better handle on it than grown ups. 
Blessings, blessings, blessings for all unity consciousness is upon us and thank God!!!!

11.11.11 energy part 2

It seems this energy is not for the faint of heart.  I sent out an Reiki S.O.S. call yesterday after dealing with a person in my life who was out of control.  This person is better today - but I have heard other people who are having psychotic breaks with this energy - it is so expanding that those not able to process this vibration are getting lost.  So if anyone you love is experiencing these extreme reactions - send them grounding energy, cut all their cords of fear and love them even more than you already do - xoxox

On another note - this energy is also triggering all your wounds - I know that as I have quite a few of mine triggered - LOL  Receiving - over and over I say I am open to receive - but I still have a hard time with this "receive".  I can take and I can give but passive receiving is hard.  I realized this when my friend gave me 2 beautiful pictures she painted - they are awesome but I have a hard time telling someone how great there are - it's like I was caught off guard - I then think "why can't I just say Thank you"  words seem so small when given a gift of such beauty - OK, I found another wound time to heal it - Thank you Dorie, again xoxoxo.  Here are her beautiful angel pictures:

X Marks the Spot

As I took the dogs out at my job (hehe) one day I looked up and saw this sight in the sky.  A giant "X" over the house.  This was strange and I thought what could it mean - we are marked somehow????  Not long after that my granddaughter told me she was abducted by aliens from the downstairs bathroom - but she is OK now - I simply replied that explains a lot.  Are we some kind of experiment?  Is our bloodline that we must bring society further along it's evolutionary path?  Can we prosper in this world and really move into a 5D earth?  So many questions, fears, abuses on earth and her inhabitants, all I can do is stand here and be a witness and offer love, prayers and positive intentions - "thy will be done"  - but it is hard....  I am an Aries and my ego is strong and wants to take charge - fix everything so it's right...  Show me "The Way"....

11.11.11

Well the door has opened - or was it open all along.  As I mentioned before I live with 2 Libra's - one has an addiction to "Money" and the other one has an addiction to "alcohol".  I am also an addicted personality - so this is very difficult to watch play out in front of my eyes.  I am always propping up those around me and when I get to burnt out I fall to their level - Can you say Co-dependant?  I really need to ascend and let these people grow up - but when you love someone it is hard to let them fall - but you must or you will never grow either.  I really do not know how to do this - but I will go soak in the tub and turn it over - HOPE is all I have at this point.  xoxo Blessings to my circle of light that keeps me going on these dark days xoxo

The Way, Karma

Divine love, compassion and forgiveness - who is living off of our pain?
My friend Dorie - one of my spiritual teachers mentioned yesterday the reptilian energy feeding off our Karma - our energetic pain is their food.  I was telling her about Meg Benedictine taking a 2nd chakra feeding tube off a man who was a witness to the Cather's if not one himself.  How do we stop feeding those life forms that live off of our pain/resentments/anger.  We must encompass divine love - Christ consciousness - a stream of "infinite love".  You can see it as a thick honey golden energy filling your body - expanding through your entire body - every cell is plumped with LOVE, compassion and forgiveness.  You are the light you wish to see in the world....  Happy 11/11/11!!!!!! Namaste my beloved xoxoxo  Find the way to 5D earth - I will see you there <3 <3 <3

free will/fate/the planets/

1:49 PM anybody just feel that?????  11/08/11

OK - BACK TO MY TOPIC -

I know these things free will, fate and the planets are large topics.  These are the subjects of philosophers debates since the beginning of time.  I do believe everyone has free will to a certain extent.  Fate is the planets - you can call it what you will...  I believe we are given choices - fate- that certain events will occur and change our lives.  I also believe that these choices are foretold by the transit of the planets based on where they were the moment we took our first breath.  Unless of course you are a walk-in - which is another theory altogether.  But it is always your choice - how you make that choice is yours, for who you make that choice is yours - but the choice will always present itself....  your reaction is the only variable.

Thomas Jefferson - Magdalene Line

Disclaimer - sponge alert - lol  As I have stated before I am reading "the Expected One"  which is about finding the Magdalene Books - this book is fiction but so much of it is ringing true in my ears <3  the author had me at "her bday was 3/22"  which means she was an Aries, with hazel eyes and auburn hair - now I am also an Aries (3/25) with hazel eyes and brownish (bottled auburn) hair .  what brought me to this book is a sequence of events that goes ....  first I picked the "Mary Magdalene" card for my weekly card from the Doreen Virtue goddess deck.  then the next week I reshuffled and pulled the same card again!  I then listened to star seed radio academy on blog talk radio (http://www.blogtalkradio.com/starseed-radio-academy/2011/10/25/atlantis-revealed-part-2-1) and they were talking about the Magdalene line, the pleadians and this book "the expected one".  So i picked it up from the library.  The deeper I got into this book the more I realized the story maybe fiction but many of the facts were true.  Yesterday night I got to the part where "Thomas Jefferson"  was part of the bloodline of Easa and Mary, that there are over 1 million decedents of Jesus many living on this earth now. Another coincidence - all the first born girls on my mother side of the family are named for "Mary", as I am Mary Elizabeth, and my mother is Marilyn.
Previously I had a reading by Arielle (of starseed academy) which stated my "crop circle" (natal chart) not only being of pleadian linage but also of the "Jefferson" descent. Which I never really thought of before -  I had to quit reading and just think about this for awhile.  It's like I am piecing together my linage thru little clues from my birth chart.
 I have had quite a few readings over my lifetime, I do readings myself, I am very close to having the fall of Atlantis in my chart, I do believe I go further back than even the time of Easa and Mary - back to Atlantis, the lady of the lake, So many clues.....
During my reading from Christoper Witecki - (www.SoulGarden.me) He stated a certain "God" aspect which is rare - 12th house sun - or past life continuing on.  He thought this was a continuation, but I actually think both. Because another reading I got from Marguerite Manning and she also stated this aspect as being a divine channeler. This aspect is also supported by my friend "Dorie" (www.powerwithin.us) who said I was to channel "the great Mary".
 How the clues all come together - how exciting it is at this time in history.  With 7 billion people on the planet now - all here for the big show.  I pray for us all as Easa, Mary, and the Great Mother would have us pray......  with love to Our father the creator - whether he be in our heart or in the sky or on another planet - Love is all there is....  Blessed be xoxoxo

Coming up - Changes

Well this week will prove to be interesting.  My 2 Libras have been freaking out for over a month now - as I try to stay calm in the eye of the storm.  Greece's economy is crashing this week and will declare bankrupcy, which will crash the Euro, which will affect the dollar.  Comet y?? is passing between the earth and the moon - so expect some big earth happenings this week all leading up to the Full moon on 11/10/11 and the next portal opening on 11/11/11 - it should be a crazy week.  xoxoxo

AM musings

hummmmmmm - well I am a sponge - I know that -what ever I focus on I absorb and it becomes part of me.  I have to be careful for darker energies, because I am light, but very fond of the darkness that is drawn to me looking for light.  How I want to go on the "Magdalene tour" in France next August.

  If it is to be it will be.  Now back to symptoms/pains - stabbing pains all over my body - like someone has a voodoo doll of me and is sticking pins in it.  I certainly hope they cut it out soon.

yesterday I posted on Doreen's website:Mary E SquiresDoreen Virtue Official Fan Page
Sea Shepherd Conservation Society
The Cove runs Bloody once Again with the Loss of life...

Operation Infinite Patience: Week 7
www.seashepherd.org
Calling All Lightworkers, Angels, Goddess's and Ascended Masters
Maybe if enough of us "intend" for this to end - honoring this town's traditions - yet somehow saving the Dolphins and Whales - redirect them away from this area - until this town can find another way to support itself without slaughtering these mammals xoxoxo

Then today I see:  Dawning Golden Crystal Age

Please send your Love & Prayers to Japan now ♥ Blessings of The Cosmic Light !

Wall Photos

your Light and love is so needed right now ..
YOU CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE ...
Discover NOW how you can help and assist humanity and the Earth from now to 2012 and 2013 for the many Earth Changes that are coming upon this Planet .
God bless your Light !!!
THE LIGHT OF GOD NEVER FAILS !!!!

♥ An Urgent Message from Mother Vesta about the Islands of Japan ♥
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hGAsCcDl6Fo&feature=channel_video_title

The Expected One

As I sit here in my Midwestern town - reading "The Expected One" , a book about the Magdalene Line by Kathleen McGowan, I wonder if I will ever be able to visit these holy places on earth in person.  As I asked this question a lady bug landed next to me - with no answer, just to sit with me awhile....  I guess I can just wait and see - if this is a path that makes itself available to me, without harming anyone.  Ladybug means many things Luck, protection, and love according to "What's your sign" online reference for all signs and totems :)  After posting the tragedy going on in Taiji Japan with the Dolphins and Pilot whales on Doreen's FB page - I know there are many people hurting around the world - there is much suffering in this dimension - it is very hard to take it in and breath it out and stay positive.  I can only intend it to be better - sending golden light to all of Earth and love....

Violence

I felt i had to speak on this subject - Violence.  Anyone who knows me knows I hate and do everything to avoid violence - I dislike what it does to people.  The intense fear, the inability to think straight and the way it spreads like a virus.  So when I see people on TV and the newspaper killing in the name of "god" it truly baffles me...  It seems to me the only people that really seem to have "gods" back seem to only speak of love -  and they are too few and far between.  Earth school lesson number #1 - work on your own shit.  You can only fix yourself, and even that may take a lifetime :)

CoCo and the 9th Wave Ends

Well as usual the end of the 9th wave and then begins the 10th wave - But when this portal opened out came our little Cohen Cooper weighing in at 7lbs 6 ozs at 2:32PM .  He was delivered by C-Section just like his sissy - Bay.  So I am wondering what this means to our family - as we have many reincarnations on earth at this time - I am actually living 2 lifetimes simultaneously as I write this and it is quite confusing some days.  My dad is back and so is my Gma - I can see the "Magdalene" in the face of my granddaughter.  There is such a beautiful story playing out on earth right now in my blood family.  I am thankful - I still see the tragedies happening all over the world and in my "back yard".  Many people, animals, trees, mother earth, father sky, in the water and in the air brothers and sisters are suffering.  It is quite hard to breathe at times - but I am keeping my head low - praying, staying positive, staying in love....  staying in non-judgement   One last thing - I took a picture of our new Star Baby and he came out all white - just pure light - outline - of a baby.  I think that photo was destroyed but if it was not I will post it :)
Well time to go cook - Hall-o-ween tonite - sending love to the masses near and far from above as below - we are all one...

Scorpio New Moon 10 26 2011

I dreamt last night that aliens landed - their ships looked like large jelly fishes in the sky I saw at least 4 - I was at a place on earth - my family and some friends were there.  we wanted to barbecue and did not have any charcoal - so I said I would go get some - I was driving in a station wagon and was looking at the sky and clouds - the ships took focus and I realized what was going on.  The earth cracked and I knew destruction was all around me - but I was fine and the people with me were fine - I was leading them out of the rubble - still determined to find a grocery store - which I saw across the street - Then I heard "GET THE FUCK UP BITCH" and woke up - it was late and I had to be at work in 10 minutes.

Very weird dream for a new moon - although I am sure it meant I would be OK - no matter what...

so this is what Dream moods says:

Catastrophe

To experience a catastrophe in your dream represents sudden instability and upheaval in your walking life. You are feeling extremely anxious about the unknown changes that are in store for you. Charcoal

To dream that you are eating charcoal symbolizes your burning passion and libido. You are going through some sort of transformation and embracing your sensuality. - well dang i was not eating - just going to buy it.  Jellyfish

To see a jellyfish in your dream, represents painful memories that is emerging from your unconscious. There may be hidden hostility or aggression in some aspect of your waking relationship or situation. Alternatively, a jellyfish indicates feelings of inadequacy, uncertainty and a lack of self-esteem. Perhaps there is some situation in which you are unable to assert yourself.  To see aliens in your dream signify that you are having difficulties adapting and adjusting to your new surroundings. You are feeling "alienated" and disconnected. You may also be having difficulties with how to handle or deal with a certain situation or person. On a psychological level, seeing aliens represent an encounter with an unfamiliar or neglected aspect of your own self.

Disclaimer

This blog is not for anyone but me - it is a history of awaking for myself only so no comments need be made. 

It is October 23, 2011 - NW Indiana - a robin came to me today.  He/she just sat there looking at me with the dog and cat walking along the hill line leading to the river below.  As soon as I tried to connect with it - it flew away - no message except I am here - always with you - never forget.... 

With the Scorpio new moon coming I am very sad/emotional/blah so that was a weird thing.  I had to cancel my astrology class today because like so many people I do not have any $$$.  I did not get to go to my Reiki Master (in-person) training because I do not have any money.  I could go on - but i think I get it - I DO NOT HAVE AND $$$....  As an Aries/Taurus/Cancer - $$$ is something that lets me do the things I want to do.  I actually give it away as an energy exchange every chance I get.  I should be more frugal but it is sooooo restrictive to hold it all back.  I once heard an astrologer say " a grand trine in water is so aggravating because they think - "God will provide""  Yep grand trine in water here and yes I think God will provide me with a way to grow, the money to do it, and the ability to help others.  Patience is my middle name, as much as I would love to smack some people upside the head I do not - I just bless them and keep going.  Now that being said I am tired of waiting - LOL  I can feel something in the distance, I cannot touch it yet but I know it's there and I'm afraid it's going to be painful, for my highest good, but I am dreading it never the less.  As much as I want change - I never embrace it - I am always the one kicking and screaming until it's over - then I say whew that wasn't so bad.  Hopefully this next big change will be the same.
  As I surround myself with my circle of light I send blessings to myself - after all this is for me and no one else....