Oy - Oy - Oyyyyyyy

As I sit here willing myself to get up and clean my house for 2012 - I think hummmmm - what do I envision for myself this coming year - then I think heck - nothing I (my ego) has envisioned for myself  in 2011 has happened - so I'm just going to go with the flow on this coming year - plan for some nice things and let it go - if it is meant to be, by the grace of God it will be.  Although my most important prayers have always been answered - my family is healthy, we are OK, I can  hear god, I am at peace....

As I begin to write this blog - 3 crows have come to sing me a song - the magic crows posess is amazing - so I gave them my wish for 2012 - abundance, good health, travel, time and love...

I spent this morning planning the next 2 years with me momma and me daughter - vacations - Ireland?  Rhinelander?  Florida?  all are in the works - and they will happen, by the grace of God - Mother and Father God....

My thoughts are kind of lazy this week - like my body - it is truly a time for reflection and letting go of all the expectations we put upon our selves.  I am at an in-between part of my life - unwilling to go back but unsure of my next step forward - so I will wait just a little bit longer - busy my hands with some menial work - and let my mind go silent...  for the next step is the step of divine inspiration awaits me - for those with ears to hear....

Peace to you this Holiday season -
 whether Jesus was a Pisces or a Capricorn - lol
(it seems Mary Magdalane was an Aries right on the cusp with plenty of Pisces to keep her connected to God.)
 We celebrate and honor this man who spoke only of love - being the highest expression to god... 

Let us all intend love for 2012 to all humans, animals, plants, water, earth, minerals, air, planets, stars, universe - even if for only one second of 2012 may we all feel it in complete synchroicity - the vibration of love xoxoxo

Staying in the Now

I love the frequency of the Christmas season - now when I say that you think - hey - it only comes once a year - right but no I mean the vibration of the season the "frequency" as in where you set your dial - as above so below....

Although yesterday, I feel off the wagon, and let myself slip into feeling sorry for myself - lonely and just plain sad.  I am like a great big "Tesla Generator" - the universe keeps showing me all these wonderful things to do, see, be....  but i am just stuck here watching my beautiful grandchildren - unable to tear myself away for fear I will miss something - I love them so much - I want to be there for them - yet I also want to do fun things - travel, take classes, hang around with high vibrational people.

 Back to "Tesla"  zap - zap - " A trip to Avalon"  shock - shock - zap - a trip to the pyramids - zap - shock - zap - CBR coaching classes - zap - shock - zap   ...  OK you get the idea...  There is so much to do - see - be in this world, I think I could do that - but do I really want to?  (Start this one whining.....)  But it costs a lot of money.......  (OK, stop whining)  hahahaha.  I know money is just energy - but I have become very selective on where I get energy from - which is probably a bad thing - I just want to make sure it is the right energy - (there I go judging again )- OK, maybe the right intentional energy - like when I worked at a bank and they were so greedy trying to get everyone buried in debt - so my branch could make their "numbers" - we can't lose focus of the intent.  OK I am rambling....  LOL

It is hard to look to the future - and stay in the present - I have been reading my 2012 horoscopes for the last week - first thing I check for is possible dates I may win lotto - LOL - but then I watch for dates of happiness and good energy - well it seems I will have those - but next years theme is "patience" argh - razafratza - man,  I thought someday this patience thing would finally be over - after all I am an Aries - so feeling very bummed out and somewhat disillusioned by all the work I have been doing on myself I decided to turn it over to my "circle of light".

As I laid in my bathtub - with no light but a red candle, Monks chanting healing words, I released all my expectations on what will be - and turned it over for guidance.  Just relax and release - maybe that's what patience really is - just knowing everything is going to be OK - no matter what - Que Sera, Sera
 - what every will be will be......   Sometimes what the universe has in store for us is better......

When I got out of the tub -  I went into the kitchen and there in my front yard was Buddha eating from the bird feeder - Buddha is a deer that comes to eat at my house sometimes - reminding me to be gentle, kind and loving - especially to myself... the universe is an abundant place and all energy you put out comes back around - even if it is bird food......

Oh and if you wanna have your own Tesla Generator check it out : http://howtobuildateslagenerator.com/articles/learn-how-to-build-a-tesla-generator-and-go-off-the-grid-forever/
Cool - ha

12 in 1 = 2012

"The Merkaba" - twelve gates of light around a center still point - "you"!!!! You are the conduit for the energy between the higher dimensions and earth - awaken starseeds - come into 2012 - bring your family of light with you - in love - in joy - in peace.

The illustration on the left is from http://www.newearthevolution.com/.

Meg Benedicte - is a starseed who uses vortex energy to access the 5D and beyond.  I love how well she articulates the energy - she is another awesome lightworker that I follow.

Through this merkaba I am seeding my intentions for 2012 - with of course divine energy, crystalline energy and locking it into the crystalline grid for earth gaia.  

The sacred geometry of 12 - now when ever anyone mentions the word - geometry - I break out in a cold sweat thinking - how am I every going to remember all those terms - just like Algebra it seems like a lot of work for something with a variable answer.  I prefer something with solid - measurable conclusions - but of course that is just my ego wanting to judge - and say "see your better" or "see they are better"...

So as I look back upon 2011 - my horoscopes given to me a year ago - did I achieve success?  Money?  Happiness?  Did I have an awesome year?  I would say I have attained "Happiness" - it was a human year - but I released a lot of darkness - now for next year $$$$, Travel, More me time and a higher vibrational living - I am look to these changes w/o harming anyone else and always for my highest good - a smooth transition

- Accepting and Surrendering to my Bliss-

Chomping at the Bit

Do you feel like you are at an important point in your journey?  Are you ready to step of that cliff and fly?  I am more than ready to fly.  It seems now that Mercury is stationed direct and has moved to 3 degrees Sag - I am anxious to roam free - feeling that Sag energy for sure!!!!  My Moon and Chiron are both at 1:11 degrees today in Leo and Pisces....  that's gotta mean something !!!!  But no - maybe it is the asteroid "Mary - (#2779)" transiting my 10th house of fame and fortune - at 15 degrees Capricorn.  Who knows? Did you ever look up the asteroid that has your name - it's pretty cool - mine was named in 1981 - so that was the year I turned 20.   Look on www.astro.com - extended charts - name look up - pretty cool.  If you need more clarification - I will help you - leave a comment below :)

I attended an energy meditation - via the web on 12/12/11 - it was awesome - we opened the 12 portals and brought in energy through all 12 portals into mother earth - it was an awesome experience.  When it was over I was very dizzy and I have not had that much ambition since then.  But I can say that the 11.11 activations are working and the 12.12 wave we just experienced was exhilarating.  We actually seeded our 2012 intentions into that wave - of universal love - some people said theirs out loud and some did not - mostly love-healing for our earth/water/animals/political systems/humans/connection to all.  I did not say mine out loud - because of course I am looking for abundance to travel, fix up my house, move on the the next whatever I am suppose to be doing.  Of course I want all the things said out loud and on a more personal note the things whispered in my head too xoxo   For more info on that   http://www.newearthevolution.com/

I am feeling stuck - maybe I should monetize my blog - I need to get to the future "me"....  I know remember - it's the journey...  But couldn't I just run a little?  Skip?  Gallop?  Oh - Oh back to Sag I go.  I guess I am still at the chop wood, carry water till Jupiter goes direct on Christmas day.

As you can see from my blog today the energies are still wonky - choppy - unable to hold thoughts and form cohesive sentences - ha ha I guess I will have to chomp at the bit a bit longer till I can stabilize my energy and thoughts.  Then - you better look out - cause I'm ready to come thundering out of the gate and run around the track for a while...  xoxo

What's your Frequencey?

Right now - I am listening to Tom Kenyon's vibrational tuning - pituitary, pineal and heart along with a chant  - he offers them all for free at: www.tomkenyon.com.  My granddaughters have grown up listening to toning and meditation songs as they are with me during the day - so it should not surprise me when I see her "Om - ing"  along with the music.  So last week me n "Maui" were om-ing to a Pleiadian tools blogtalk radio show when her Daddy walks in - just a small smile and off about his business he goes.  We are all one -

Feeling emotional?  Well, it's the full moon eclipse at 18 degrees Gemini  -  it's falling in my 2nd house of possessions/money/ wahhhhh.   I am fighting with my ego on this one and every card I pull says I am thinking wrong....   Wishful thinking I guess - I do not know why humans are delivered to earth with an ego if we are not suppose to use it - LOL  We are suppose to transcend our ego's - and then what will be - will be - it reminds me of that scene in pretty woman when "Edward" tells "Vivian" do not answer the phone - she says OK - he calls back - she answers the phone - He said "I told you not to answer the Phone" she say "Then quit calling me!!!!"   That's how I feel - the universe keeps calling me - travel, adventure, dreams realized, a pair of Louboutins and the list goes on.....  Am I not allowed to have those things and be a helper of the people - can't I help people well dressed and well traveled - evidently not.  WHY NOT ??????   I guess I do not know the secret formula or want it bad enough to focus hard enough - an astrologer would say too many trines makes you lazy....  But I do more than most people do - just because I make it look easy - doesn't mean it is.  I certainly hope the next step is shown soon - I know, I know it is here already I just can't see it - time for more chanting - mercury retrograde is over soon - Thank God....  Uranus retrograde is over tomorrow (10th) kinda scary but thank god anyways - all planet in forward motion by Christmas - YAY!!!!  Then maybe I can also move forward....

In closing,  I really wanna go somewhere fun - like Egypt with http://www.pyramidcode.com or Machu Picchu, or the "Avalon Tour" or "Eat Pray Love" tour - so basically a spiritual tour - where like minded people who are on the enlightened path go - yet as I say this- I am nervous, because while I was listening to one of my favorite shows on blogtalk radio about Egypt - the chat room was ridiculing  another light worker who is not like them - which I find very distasteful - because we are all one and I happen to like both.  So mind your manners - work on your own issues - because if you ever met her you would see she really does talk to angels...  and so can you!!!!     xoxo

Everyone has their own path - honor yours and theirs...

Deep thinking in the shower - must be Sag in my 9th

Last night while showering - I know I am usually a bath person but I was too tired and just wanted to jump into bed clean for yoga on Thurs - haha  It see  ...  now it's almost a week later and i am still mulling over this deep thinking topic and not any closer to resolution.  Considering I live with an "Angel", a "God" and the "Greatest Wizard" you would think I would be able to channel their wisdom - but maybe I never really asked the right questions before.
This is what Sag is all about - the questions to what you believe.
I think why do children die?
Why are we so cruel to animals?
Why are we sheep on this Earth?  I believe most people who work for greedy corporations are trying to do a good job - but bound by "their" rules for survival.  It's so sad - that life mimics the matrix on so many levels....  Your taught you cannot have nice things unless your part of the system...  WHAT HAPPENED?  I THOUGHT WE WERE ALL ONE !!!! But sooner or later "they" are going to tell you to sell out - just a little piece at first - than a bigger piece - till all you have left is fear of losing your job - then they got you - Your Fired - hahahaha  or if your lucky you wake up and say I quit <3

In watching this video (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fmMNlmn1DPc&feature=related), death, sickness and illness are a morbid hobby of this healer - to heal, to cure, Reiki, massage, thoughts, affirmations, or traditional medicine of drugs, surgery, therapy.....   I have a relative with cancer at the moment not the first we have had - he has a very bad kind and I think -"what would I do if it was me?"  I would go see John of God - I would go to china and let them heal me - but why, why, why do we have to get old, why do we have to die???  Isn't it kind of selfish to die - leaving your family - is your work done here?   Are we really that primitive of a species that we must die to inspire others around us - to compel them forward in their lives and their souls evolution???

Is this what "Earth School" is all about -  thrusting the soul forward - compressing, suffocation, till we become the shiny diamond - being a carbon based life form - maybe we are all just diamonds in the rough...

let go - a time to slow down

I have seen "the mustard seed" reference 2 times between yesterday and this morning:
1/ http://ellenwhitehurst.tumblr.com/
2/http://youtu.be/FL7DWPhNWzQ

This seems to be the theme of the week leading up to the eclipse on Saturday - have faith, clean your house - physically, mentally and spiritually.  It seems to be a necessary let down of energy from the 11.11 high we were riding for the last month.  I know 11.11 came and then we all felt like the day after Christmas - a big let down.  Some of us were able to keep riding that high for a while longer - but eventually we all must re-land on planet earth.  As Colette (http://www.colettebaronreid.com) says it's time to chop wood and carry water.....  we have to do the mundane, take care of our lives here on earth.

So yes - some days we have to work at being happy - I tend to torture myself with videos on FB or You Tube showing the atrocities of the world - mostly against the animals on this planet.  My stance is that of a witness - and someone who begs the universe to make it stop.  I thank all the animals for their great sacrifice to come here and teach us how to be compassionate.  Maybe it's a sideways way of making myself cry and cleansing my spirit.  I am a tender soul - although most people who know me may not think so - I am strong, resilient - but that does not make me not feel.  I do feel but sometimes I can only let in so much before it is too much - so as usual I seem to be rambling - I need to find a great astrology course to take with a group that I can talk with.  I find I learn the most when I am able to discuss astrology (or whatever I am learning) with people - hear their views - form my own opinions - test theories etc...

OK - let go and let god - I have faith and will do the mustard seed mantra -
 I have to say - Ellen's writings/mantra's/spells whatever you want to call them work more often than not - I did a Buddha one last November for healing and it was so great even my yoga teacher noticed how much my shoulders released - it was a true healing during a dream...  From that time I have asked Buddha to stay in my circle of light ...  with gratitude  xoxo

OK, enough for Monday - remember to clear your chakras, spin out your aura - (33 times if you can), clean up your inside and outside - love yourself - xoxo

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