* ^j^ * Failing the Enlightenment Test * ^j^ *

So as I sit here contemplating my life,

(10/29/13)

or should I say lack of life.
(Transiting Jupiter 20 degrees on my natal moon) 

Still smarting from the continued lashing of Scorpio,  

through my 7th house...

Unfortunately I have once again built my life,

on a "Weak Foundation"

It is not a satisfying life...

I am

"Failing the Enlightenment Test"...

I am much better as the vain, shallow, self destructive, woman....

But how do you let go?...

I think I have asked this question before...

And now here I am asking that same question again...

See...

 I am

 "Failing the Enlightenment Test"...

Everyone is aggravating the

 fuck out of me

Lying to me,

 avoiding me,

 running with scissors,

 losing their jobs,

 punching themselves in the head,

 having fun....

 But not me..

I think I am going to have to quit my day job

 and find a new one...

Far, far away...

What do you do when your employer has to be reminded to pay you?

When you speak people don't listen,

 or get mad that you have the nerve to think of something besides them?

I was told  things will be better,

 by next summer...

Ha - by the looks of things  - we'll see

It is funny when everyone who points at you and calls you selfish...

Has more stuff...

Money...

Fun... 

While you sit there feeling like you have 

"Failed the Enlightenment Test "

May you find peace and knowledge during your term at earth school my friends

P.S. I know the pity pot is not a pretty spot...

Are you passing the

"ENLIGHTENMENT TEST"

(from: http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/enlightenment)

en·light·en·ment

noun \in-ˈlī-t^ən-mənt, en-\

: the state of having knowledge or understanding : the act of giving someone knowledge or understanding
the Enlightenment : a movement of the 18th century that stressed the belief that science and logic give people more knowledge and understanding than tradition and religion

Buddhism : a final spiritual state marked by the absence of desire or suffering

Xoxo

*** Scorpio Cancer Pisces - this morning I was drowning in water

So grieving the loss of "Tom Tom"

The spewing of frustration from relatives

The injustices of the spying of the NSA

The peril of Dolphins and Whales, 

What can I - Do to help?

I have no money to help....

So I pray, 

But like everyone who prays and questions...
 

You wonder,
"Does it help"?

Yes, the "god" people always say "yes"...

I have felt a small tinges of  

Dare I say it,

"HOPE"

I think the "HOPE" will come, 

For the people, animals, earth, fish, & sea mammals

The "HOPE" will come when enough people wake up...

Today was family rough,

Faith rough, 

I had to take the day off.. 

I could not "tune in" today, 

Some yoga, some TV

Some meditation

You cannot,

I cannot,

Be "on" all the time...

We must all find a better way,
"TO BE"

I know people will argue, 

But really, 

If it's not hurting someone else

(Such as the dark arts)
 

All religion is the same... 

Some have a broader viewpoint and some a narrower one.

If you think only "yours" gets the golden ticket,
 you are sadly mistaken..

Let there be peace on earth and let it begin with me...

I am sick of being bombarded with unenlightened bullshit...

I guess today is just to watery.

Peace be with you 

(written Friday 10/25/13)

#%#% TAROT CaRDS

 

Most days I pull tarot cards from different decks

 I have either as an app on my IPAD

( Healing Angels, Map, HON, Power Animals, Lenormand, Beautiful Tarot)

Or real cards that I own

( Mermaids, Fairies, Unicorns, Avalon, Hidden Realms, Blue Owl, Raphael, Angels)

The one thing about reading cards,

is you have to know they are speaking to you, 

(Unless of course you are reading for someone else...)

If you pull cards daily for intention...

Focus for the day

( you know living in the present ) 

There are some questions the cards will not answer

( at least for me)

As stated on a previous blog...

 I keep getting the Hermit card

Again today..

You got to love Scorpio season - when your ascendant is in Taurus

So cards the cards I pulled for 10/09

So I am thinking WTF, is my IPAD upside down!

 nope...

So then I ask for clarification

(meaning: inner work is being hampered by wishful thinking - so I am stuck waiting)

 

Wow - that's not much better I have been seeing 5 of cups a lot too.

(meaning: a direction change due to loss and illusions)

hummmm... still not clear, the cards are just messing with me :)

(meaning: be resourceful with an aggressive person and focus on the good, no matter how small)

 

Finally  I give up - 

Am I going to die by 12/31/13?



(sudden change, loss, good-bye - moving inward)

Whenever I asked the cards stupid questions they always are smart-asses :)

 

Ha ha very funny..

 Cards...

Jeez putting them away now...

 

I use this card spread as an example

 of our egos

and

our limited ability to comprehend

 the big picture.

(Jupiter in Aqua - Hello)

 

Today

10/10

during meditation,

(I am on day two Deepak's free two weeks)

(www.mentorschannel.com)

 

We connected to the universe....

with tears streaming down my face,

I realized how scared earth is now

how much fear and suffering is in this

"earth school classroom"

or

is it in me?

 

My 7th House Neptune,

 mirroring back to the world my own

 fears and suffering...

 

or is it both....

 

I don't know

I am clearly either

very delusional today

or

very right on.....

 

very, very, very

 

xoxo     praying for enlightenment on our journey    xoxo

*** ^^j^^ Spell Braiding for a Great Day

 

As you can see the cards still say...

 

"Lay Low"

for this new moon in my opposite sign

 

So I thought I would share a few lessons

on color, light, intention

 

Me and "Baby Fishy" were so crabby on this rainy

Thursday morning...

 

(A friend of mine was laid to rest today and I could not go and say good-bye to her human body)

(But I did wish her soul a safe journey and send comfort to her family)

 

Back to me and baby fishy...

crying for candy at 8 am

you know it's going to be a rough day...

 

so we got cleaned up,

and spell braided our hair

with color and light

anointed our palms with

peace and joy oil...

 

As I was spell braiding her hair 

I had flash backs to ancient lives we had together

where we would spell braid each others hair

 

in Egyptian times calling on Isis,

or in Greece calling on Athena....

but now we see

 it is all "in" the intention

( the call to/for the energy )

 

 

we blend all light processes together

using color,

 calling on

Goddesses, Saints, Angels, Buddhas, Marys, Jesus'

(all light deities)

"ASCENDED MASTERS"

while chanting

"Om Mani Pad Me Hum"

 

clearing our energy bodies for another day at earth school...

 

How to spell braid your hair:

I use tiny little colored rubber bands,

coordinating those colors to the chakras

and the light beings that shine those colors,,,

to make it easy

(see small outline below - add your own favorites)

with each weave of the braid you can

call on your Deity,

recite a prayer,

invoke the light of that braid...

 

wrapping yourself in light and protection

over and over

until completed...

 

**** ^^^j^^^ IN LIGHT AND PROTECTION ^^^j^^^ ***

 

PS: the day did clear up and the Sun came out to play xoxo

 

 

SMALL OUTLINE OF COLORS

Red - Root Chakra - grounding

Orange - Sacral Chakra - Abundance

Yellow - Solar Plexus Chakra - Self-Confidence

(also golden light of creator - think thick golden honey)

Green/Pink - Heart Chakra - Love

Blue - Throat Chakra - Your Voice

Indigo - 3rd eye Chakra - Intuition

Violet - Crown Chakra - top of the head - your connection to the universe

(your heart chakra can also connect you to the universal flow of love)

 

 



********* Saturn in Scorpio - Relationships ***********

Having a 12th house

 Sun and Venus

 

I have always been able to comfort the sick

 

shore up or have fun with the addicts

 

My Mercury is in Pisces

(I spent most of my life believing I was more Pisces than Aries)

 

until an astrologer told me 

 "that's because you think like a Pisces"

(Mercury is how you think)

 

the only way I have found my true strength is in being a mother...

(an autonomous job of love and support)

 

or in a job in which I can wheel power and compassion..

(but the corporate banking world hates the "C" word)

 

but in my closest relationships and friendships

I have always been like a

 

"Companion Animal"

 

I am great company,

I know how to behave in public,

You can take out all your frustrations on me,

(energy vampires used to love me)

(not so much anymore)

 

I can process your energy and make you feel better...

 

But what does that do to me?

 

I have a feeling this Saturn Season is going to show me...

(and the rest of the world some TRUTHS)

 

I guess we will see where it leads...

 

xoxo Sending and Receiving light daily xoxo

 

Cards for Scorpio Season:
(IPAD App Beautiful Tarot)

 

for those that need help with tarot...
(a good resource is http://learntarot.com/p3.htm)

the time is not for reaction, but careful planning, for a later delayed reward...

That is Saturn for you :)

"Keep On Keeping On, My Friends"

Namaste

*** ^^^j^^^ *** Resources for the Evolving Masses - Receiving from the Universe

Being a vegetarian... 

Earth sensitive

 

My main focus is ascension, astrology and yoga

 

" ENLIGHTENMENT "

 

I like to share with you a program I heard about last night on

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/starseed-radio-academy/2013/09/24/pleiadian-ambassador-christine-day?utm_source=BTRemail&utm_medium=ShowReminder

Their guest was Christine day... 

(http://www.christinedayonline.com/

Whom I happen to love already

There is a way to bring in extra light - manna :)

I have heard other light workers speak of this ability, 

Meg Benedict does this also,

(http://www.newearthevolution.com)

 

not in the same way but being feed by the universe

all your vehicle/body needs...

 

I believe it is an meditative intention, of sorts ...

(I have not studied this yet)

 

Like anything else, 

Once something is brought to our attention

We can then set the intention to open up to it and receive.

 

 

^^j^^ Blessings to you on this "rough" energy week ^^j^^

 

 

SET YOUR NEW MOON INTENTIONS

 

EVEN IF IT IS ONLY FOR

 

PEACE WITHIN

 

 

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo