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Tuesday 1/31/2012 - not sure what was going on but i felt sick - dying - releasing January - I went to bed early - like 7PM....   I realize I channel the world so it could of been something going on Tuesday night - because it hit me like a ton of bricks - I try to keep my defenses up (Protection) but when I get tired I drop my guard - I will have to check on the news - argh - the news - 3D earth is depressing - maybe I do not want to know - LOL

As a regular "facebooker" - semi-addict - and getting better - I see all the atrocities of the 3D earth - assault on animals, the earth, our food, children, women I posted the item below - shared from one of my friends - who has the shares the same views on most issues.

Mary E Squires

What r u eating?
I think I'm going to have to start a new group called
"Find a Better WAY.ORG"

Wall Photos

One of the scariest charts I've seen.

So... corporations are in with the government regarding our food?

I do not think that info is actually a big surprise -

 I am sure "regular Joe Smoe" trying to pay his mortgage and put any food on his table for his family doesn't even have time to worry about this type of information.

  But that is also part of the problem. 

 The website I suggested is open - as in no one owns it currently... 

www.FINDABETTERWAY.ORG

 But how much effort do I want to put into 3D Earth - I am not sure - I am standing on a cliff - do I jump or do I back up........

I am waiting on Neptune's inspiration -Pisces tomorrow - God is home and 

Mars to quit counting backwards - Virgo - Retrograde 

 Forward movement is stalled for this Ram/Ox at the moment....   

Release....    Release....     

Chim, chimney, chim, chimney, chim, chim, cha roo .....   bidding my time.........  

Chim Chim Cher-ee Sing Along

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VX4Ppm-cPZI

Spiritual Ascensions

Being raised in a catholic household as a child - but still believing in "magic" not really knowing what magic was but still knowing it was out there - that people were more than what they appeared to be - more than their reactions to situations - I have traveled down many dark paths to come to this understanding.  There is magic in every moment - there is love in every breath - if only we can acknowledge it's existence we will be able to open up to divine love and the 5D and higher dimensions.

I kind of took the "Evelyn Wood Speed Reading" course on spirituality.  Coming out of the gates at the age of about 40 - yeah I dabbled a bit in my teens, 20's, 30's but never really did much else till the universe brought me to my knees and said "Listen up you"
- Kind of like that dream I had "Wake the Fuck up Bitch" LOL  - I know I should really talk to myself nicer but I was sleeping - ha ha
  I studied many different types of spirituality - some more than others - I still have not found one that works the best with me - but I am becoming more evolved in my choices - There is an aspect in my birth chart that allows me to understand complicated spiritual theories - see the bigger picture so to speak - understand what someone is conveying without them actually having to say it in detail. ( My children also have this ability)  This same gift is also a curse because it makes me seem misunderstood at times.  I am not always taken in the correct context.  I forget not everyone operates on this higher level - so a lot gets lost in translation when I speak to people who are of a lower vibration - I tend to piss them off and not really realizing why or how until I go back over the conversation in my head later.... :(  It's all a learning curve - so no hard feelings on this side of the tracks :)

As stated previously - I do not believe the version of Christianity imposed upon the people - (most of the bible seems like control tactics) how would you like your worst day ever to be the symbol of 2012 years of worship - yuk - yuk - yuk.  When I say this to my mom she says its the basis of our whole religion (Jesus on the Cross) - but I ask why should it be - Jesus was so much more than that one day - father, husband, ET (?), he came to show us we are all capable of being in "Christ Consciousness"  - the temple of god lies within you and around you.....  it is you.

Most people walk around asleep - anesthetized to the world.  I think all the movers and shakers of history were actually rebels - and criminals of their times because they opposed the status quo....
We are seeing quite a bit of this in our world right now - we will probably be seeing quite a bit more as this year progresses - Bless the rebels - for they move us all forward - let's intend for them to be the forward movement we need...

 Freedom not Constriction...  Freedom not Constriction... Freedom not Constriction

Who is in your Circle?

On earth and in spirit - Who do you surround yourself with?

I converse with many on a daily basis - but recently Fox has been showing up when I close my eyes, cunning, feminine powers, magic - I will have to see where my little fox takes me..


Fox:
As animal alchemy symbols, foxes are the cultivators of the Elixir of Life. They were also thought to be able to transform themselves into human form at night and visit the elderly, giving them sips of the mystical Elixir to prolong their life and health. As a solar animal, the fox is symbol of fire and all this meaning entails. I've written another page on this website about other perspectives and symbolic information on the fox here.  
(http://www.whats-your-sign.com/animal-alchemy-symbols.html)


Flashes of past lives keep occurring - I am assuming to be cleared, to know "How it Was"  - me and Keishi sitting on a bed of course it was so long ago - Egypt  I think - People's souls, animal souls ... 
Can you recognize them from previous lives?  Can they be "Walk-In's" for just a moment to clear you of that memory so you can move on?   
Keishi now:

Keishi then:

After listening to Meg Benedicte last night (recommended for anyone wanting to clear their life up -
http://www.Blogtalkradio.com/newearthcentral/2012/01/26/new-earth-central--crystalline-infusion-to-remove-duality )

I guess I am confused on what to do next? Interestingly I look at my life and know the only way forward is to look ahead and not look back - yet it is in our past sometimes we can find the key to the future...

Divine Feminine & Forgiveness

Anyone who knows me or has read my blog posts know that I am transformed in the water of my bath - I really should have a hot tub - but then again -  I may never get out...  :)

Lying in a steaming tub of water, add a pinch of salt, some lavender oil, maybe some rose oil, red holy candles to bring in the divine feminine - add the new moon and Venus in Pisces - I can achieve a sensitive state protected by the water from the harshness of the world - truly connected to the Divine Feminine, back to the elemental realms, Gaia,  moving through the Divine feminine linage from the lady of the lake, the Magdalene's, through the ages - all connected through the water....  now I must temper this with forgiveness - because it stirs such a anger inside my soul - the treatment of women through the ages - sending pink light of love - sending trust and forgiveness.  Forgiveness, Forgiveness, the harshness of earth needs love and forgiveness - oneness....

I have had many readings over the years - I think my next one - for my next birthday will focus on how I fit into the story of the holy family...  After reading Kathleen McGowan's books - I wonder how I fit into all of this story - as I remember running through the town - barefoot, hair long and down, a white plain dress, such a feeling of peace being with Jesus and Mary - which Mary - I am not sure of - being a Mary myself I have always felt I was a "Mary" many times before.  I do not have memories of the "Crucifixion" - I have always hated Easter and was traumatized by the church as a child, to act as the "Angry Mob" during the masses - yuk - yuk - yuk ....  Forgiveness, Forgiveness, Forgiveness - but ....   do they deserve it - the church who covered up the other half of the story - because ....... ??????  Is that what evil really is?  A person driven strictly by Ego and Fear - trying to control...  the truth from getting out...  Sending Love, Love, Love  and Forgiveness, Forgiveness, Forgiveness .....  I am truly a gentle soul - when pushed to the brink I will withdraw rather than draw blood in this lifetime.... 96% of the time - there have been times when threatened I have reacted - but mostly I just let it slide - letting the rest of the world catch up to me... :)   I have always been as I am - but I have not always remembered who that is - I have been blessed with great guides along the way - both on earth and in spirit;  Always bringing me back to love -  "The Time Returns "....

Sanctuary

In reflecting on finding my way in this world; I look to how I surround myself in my everyday life.  As I sit in my room - as this is the room that most reflect "Me" - one wall is covered with original artwork by my daughter and another corner (my wealth sector of the house) is a small shrine to the ascended masters who help me on a daily basis.  As I type this, doves sit out in the trees over looking the river - huddled there always lending their peaceful presence to my life; while the small birds all gather in the bushes around my home.  This piece of land is truly magical and I am very lucky and grateful to be a part of it all.   Last week I had a Reiki session with my friend - who also did the Mandala in the top picture - she was doing some clearing and said my heart chakra was closing and my new 5D heart chakra was opening - she connected all my lower chakras with my new heart chakra up lifting my presence here and now on this planet.  As the new moon in Aquarius approaches I wonder what it will bring, I set my intentions and read my horoscopes - wondering how it will all play out.
Here's what one of my favorite upbeat astrologers says...
THEME OF THE WEEK:It’s a New Moon in Aquarius! Mercury is also active now, indicating a busy week filled with interaction. Most notably, Mars begins a rare retrograde phase in Virgo, encouraging us to consider the wisest use of power and effective personal change. It will be a great week, enjoy!

ARIES (March 21-April 19):An interaction with a friend has a life changing effect. Through the conversation, a light bulb goes off in your mind, bringing sense to a long-confusing matter. The clarity reaches into your heart and brings you peace. With new information, you take a step into the future.

TAURUS (April 20-May 20):You have a knack for impressing authority figures now. You might not be comfortable with the boastful approach you’re asked to take at the start of the week, but it does lead to a career break. You are celebrating a new start with the achievement of a major goal.

(This is from her website : http://www.symbolicliving.com/weekly-astrology-horoscope-forecasts-january-22-28-2012/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+SymbolicLiving+%28Symbolic+Living%29)

As an Aries with my progressions I am currently a Taurus - I wonder what the achievement of a major goal will be?  I will keep you in the loop :)

Venus in Pisces is Coming

I realized today that I have not posted since 1/1/12 - Dang how time flies....

I am not really sure how I feel these days - been doing a lot of clearing and I have been agitated on most days - and unable to write about much - it is taking a lot of energy just processing "planet earth" these days.  But I still read quite a bit - my main focus is usually astrology - as a 12th house Venus ? (retrograded so far back I could be in Atlantis -28 degrees) - and Venus moving into Pisces - the house of "all things hidden"   -  the 12th house - Venus is also a gift giver - and of course LOVE - so I am expecting some sort of spiritual gift and I have already sent gratitude for this gift - before I even know what it is - as I am sure it will be for my highest good and soul's growth.  My ego does not always recognize the gifts the universe bestows upon me - as an Aries my ego is very touchy - (LOL)  it always wants the attention, hates pain and suffering, and loves destruction :(

But that's another story - "My Ego" could be another day this is about my progressed birth chart - see the 9 - 3 positions on a clock - the AS/DS -  I have Jupiter riding the AS line at 9 o'clock all the way over to Saturn holding up the DS Line - now Saturn is strong and in Libra it is holding up the balance - Abundance vs responsibility - it will be interesting to see what transpires...




On a side Note :  I always watch www.davidcammegh.com on "You Tube" I like his horoscopes - and he is radical - all the things an Aries loves :)  I left a comment on last weeks Aries and this is his response to me - 
I only wish I had the same faith that changing the President would actually change the world ...

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WELCOME - WELCOME- ALL ARE WELCOME

Can't you just see the lady from poltergiest ?

Sometimes I feel like her - watching my children (the world) wrestle with the same issues I have been fighting my entire life -

So, today, January 1, 2012 - I have spent my day taking care of myself - doing my "feng shui" remedies to bring in peace, prosperity and love - setting them firmly in place and hearing God chuckle a bit.

It is finally 2012 - the awaited time - and yes - things are different - but still the same - I decided to take the day off and color - I miss my charmed ones - only one more week and back to business I go - but for now indulge me a bit and see what I did - ha ha - for those who like cave drawings - I am a master ")

Seeds of Intention - through the 12 Gates

A Walk with the Dog

An Angel Party

St Anthony's Day

Hard Aspects

Mandala

Soul

Vines

New Earth

I did the "New Earth" and the "Seeds" one today and worked on another one called "weeping"  but it's not done yet - a lot of detail and my Aries brain was running too fast to complete it.  So today I played and colored.

 What did you do?

In case anyone was wondering what medium I use ") - it is a mixture of Cray-pas and sharpies - LOL  - I am an "elemental artist" - unfortunately the Virgo (nit-picky perfectionist) in my chart -is in my 5th house of creativity and fun - so this is my best bet - I have never really tried painting, although I used to do ceramics - elementary school art is my only training. I love artists and their ability to do art and not think art - As I once asked an artist "how to do art" - they looked at me blankly and turned to talk to someone else.  I now understand it is not something you can explain - just feel....