IRRELEVANT HA GFY!!!!

Logically, I know no one can make you feel irrelevant - but emotionally I have been feeling irrelevant.  I am sure it is because of a growing process I am moving through in these tumultuous times.  

I care for 4 little charmed ones - it is an important job - but all the perks of life on earth are not given to a person who cares for another soul....  I guess it's because the work being done is not of this earth - it is of a divine nature and cannot be measured in "human worth"  ....

I find myself resisting the urge to rejoin the world - yet also need certain things that unfortunately only money can buy - so, as I teeter between the 3D and 5D (and beyond) I guess relevance is only relevant if you perceive it to be....

Dilemma's, dilemma's, dilemma's - yes, I over-think most things - which is why an easy job is harder for me than a hard job...

I know most people as employees do not think  - is this right? Is this a moral company?  Is it just a matter of intention?  If you go to work, do your best, follow the rules, does your life "feel" better ?  People went to work in "concentration camps" - because they needed a job to feed their families, because they were afraid - I am not sure I want to re-enter the human work world - but what's the alternative?

I already have the world's perfect job :)

All around me my support people - are going crazy - obsessive, compulsive, I am actually the "sane one" -"scary" - huh  - maybe that's why I feel I must find a "job"... 

* Let it all go and see what comes back * 

One more thing - all the aggression that is coming off people - whew - make sure you are using your personal bubble/mirrors/ whatever your preferred method is - (mine is laughing at the person who is being aggressive - but I do not recommend that to most people - LOL  )

Even the animals are picking up some of this violent energy - DO YOUR PART  -  process your anger without hurting anyone/thing - scream, yell, sing loudly, keep processing ...

I Love You...

 ****xoxo****

P.s. GFY means.....

(Go F**k Yourself)

Mars is Direct finish the house

Today I was afforded the chance to reminisce at the house where I raised my children.  It is a small modular home in a small community.  The neighborhood is full of people raising families.  Next door there is a duplex - which always seems to attract humans in their rawest form - poor, addictions, kids - yet I can only smile when I see these people - for they are living their lives.  I do not think they realize how lucky they are.  They have their kids - all looking like ragamuffins - running free, playing with stray cats, riding their bikes up and down the sidewalk - happy in the moment. 

I thought back to the times of raising my own children there - and how I actually grew up there too.  It is a journey for everyone not just the kids.  The moms and dads are learning and growing too.  Yes, I had many days that were not great in that house - but now I choose to remember the good times, like watching the kids playing in the yard - digging holes - yes I know it's crazy but my kids used to love to dig holes in the yard - big holes (the yard was mostly sand then) jump in the holes, god only knows the games they imagined in that house, hiding 16 Easter baskets in 1020 sq feet is not small task - but I am a good mom (most of the time - well OK 50% of the time, LOL), Christmas mornings there in the beautiful tiny house - stuffed to the gills with junk. 

But what i remember most is my kids there, raising puppies there, being across the street from the school so I could see my kids - Location, location, location :)  So what makes a home a home - the energy in it.  We filled that house with love - for each other.....  It's still a great house - yes it is a "cheap House"  but you can have a good life in a cheap house full of love xoxo

Here's my recipe for a home take one mommy (and daddy) add four awesome souls throw in about four dogs for good measure and top it off with at least three cats, maybe a turtle or two add some obstacles to overcome = 's one house full of love - I can still feel it there...

"Under A Spell" Musings

success - how the outside world measures success is not true success - it is only material - material rots and decays while love lives on forever -

For example:  The Mercedes commercial - buy one to pass down to your kids - owning one makes you realize you are a success :(  How sad is that thought?  Although I will have to admit - when I watch that commercial my "Ego" says - Yes - I must have one of those shiny cars - I'm worth it....  I am becoming or just realizing how sensitive I actually am - I am not trying to push my agenda if it is not in my best interest - such as yesterday....  I walked into a place to apply for a part-time job - when I went to speak I had no voice - LOL  I guess my body was telling me - no - not this place - not yet - back on the bench - the coach says I'm not ready yet "something better this way comes"

As I wait in joyful expectation, full of gratitude for all i have - feng shui, spells - whatever you want to call it - Law of Attraction, prayer, L - O - V - E, song, intention......   enchantment  :)

"keywords on my mind"
 Mercedes - where is my cowboy - mars direct - dreams - importance - having the things I want/need - living true and expecting - job hunting - cutting up all karmic contracts, abundance, surrender

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April 6 2012 Full Moon

I have been feeling the Full Moon coming all week - crabby, on edge...  all the usual symptoms - and so have my "charmed ones".   Wednesday I had "mini me" over and she loves to draw cards from my decks - well actually she loves the little books in the box of cards - so after she went home with her momma I drew cards for myself and they weren't too shabby...  Now to put them into action - we have many blessings in our family xoxo

The first Card is "Business Venture" - trust and follow through on a new business idea or career opportunity - it has been coming to me from 4 different sources now to offer astrology readings and actually charge for them - LOL  I do readings for friends - but I always feel I am not good enough to charge - well I got my first "cash" client this week - wooo - hoooo 

The second card is "Blessed Change" A major life change brings you great blessings - I am not sure of that one - maybe it is with the one above :) Because as much as I "LOVE" change it is scary and I am pretty stubborn - LOL

The third card is "Happy Surprise" - something very good is about to happen - well that is always a great omen!!!!!! Plus it's from the unicorn deck so double smiles....

The fourth card is "Archangel Gabrielle" You have an important life purpose involving communication and the arts - Please don't allow insecurities to hold you back -I will help you....  I have had many readings to that effect, yet I am clueless to what this great destiny is - maybe it is just to be and love "Mary E Squires" xoxo  I think I'm going to need more help if it is anything bigger than that :)

******Love to you this full moon******

Happy New Year

With 3 planets in retrograde - I have no idea how I am having the time to write this but here I am and her it goes - H a p p y  N e w  Y e a r !!!!

The ascension process continues - bloody noses, trolls, children's spirits, my soul family all gathered here on this earth plane - the more I learn about astrology the more I can see the "healing" community is all about fixing squares, oppositions, etc....  BTW I have finished my aspect class - and I now understand more about aspects in a persons life and how the energy affects certain areas of a persons life/chart.

I had a bad week last week - overworked myself and then felt resentful :(  I understand this and I know this aspect in my chart.  But i also learned something interesting, when I allow myself to be overworked/overburdened I will only do this for my blood family.  Everyone else - when I get pushed to the point of no return - gets PUSHED - to the back burner until I can deal again.  even if they are my great friends and did nothing - i just need to regroup and retreat into "my soul" to heal.

I am not sure if anyone else feels this - but the marked speeding up of time - is really affecting me.  Even do an exercise video on TV - the guy is on 8, 9 10 and I'm on 3, 4, 5 - I do hate to be rushed - LOL
I heard it best described on "New Earth Central" Meg Benedict show last night her co-host Manette said "it's like being a rock star - every day you wake up in a new city - you go out and do the same show but the scenery, the people and the world has different".

While I am recommending people - I would also like to recommend Kim Rogers Gallagher (author) on FB - she writes a hilarious account of the planets as people .

Well that's it gotta go brush my teeth, wash my face, tote that barge, push that rock up the hill :)
Although I did hear a great analogy last week - I'm not sure where - but instead of pushing the rock up the hill "be the Boulder rolling down the hill - towards your new life".  Sounds great but all I need is $$$$ and I can be that boulder....  "Same old Mary"  I know, I know - but the universe is showing me i can do it without money - I got a new pair of Reebok's, a new TV, a mani-pedi certificate all without asking - and an offer for a free yoga class - Gratitude for the lessons, gratitude for the givers, gratitude for all those who thought of me xoxoxo

Blessings, wrap the world in a pink blanket daily for the best possible outcome xoxoxo

Buying my Freedom

I guess I am channeling my "slave mentality" - seeing as it is "Black History Month" - I am not a black woman in this lifetime - but I believe I have been all skin colors in other incarnations.

Winning Lotto has always been one of my long term goals - I know some people want to save for retirement - but me - no - I want to be provided for from the Universe - I know - I know -  personal responsibility issues - 12th house sun and Venus - with Cappy Saturn and Aqua Jupiter in my 10th I am a walking contradiction.  No wonder why I chose such outlandish goals - but to me these goals seem perfectly logical - Reading an astrology book over the weekend - I read Aqua/Pluto 5th house people are kind of kooky - they can be known to break into song at any given moment - "So what's so wrong with that?"  hahahahahahahaha

I am actually not unhappy with my life - there is just a little wanderlust in my soul - I actually love spending the days with my grandchildren! I would like to fix up my house (I would have to hire people), travel and take better care of myself - so I guess taking better care of myself inside and outside would be the focus of me wanting to win lotto (or something better)

 - and so it is -

 because I said so...

"The Time Returns"

"The Mary Squires Family Trust Account" - the reason I bring this up is I have picked lotto numbers and written them on cards - in red sharpie- the girls and I and Coco - did a circles chanting the numbers last Friday - so as soon as Bay and Coco walked in this morning - Mar went and got the cards out of my pocket - my little "Lion" is so in tune with the full moon xoxox

Now of course the only hitch in the plan is my hubby - he wants half of my lotto winnings - ha ha - so .....  The trust acct could be 1/2 of my winnings - so let's make it a big one - cause he can have his portion (7%) from the trust and me or 1/2 the winnings and go off by himself somewhere.

What would you chose - would you be greedy? 

 Or would you rather have me xoxo

So Venus in Aries...

Ancestral Goblins

My Husband's

Grand Aunt Lou, Great -Grandma, Grandma Anne and Grand Uncle John

1920's Chgo

Grandma Anne's Daughter Virginia (Ginny) Michelon - My Husbands Mother 1956

Last weekend I spent a good part of Saturday and a bit of Sunday scanning in old family pictures into a website for sharing photos with your family.  As I stared at these photos of whom I knew some of the people and some I did not know - I thought - what is the back story?  

How - in the end were these people that I love - able to release themselves...   

What "family stories" kept them from reaching their full potential?  

Maybe they did reach their full potential - accomplished all they had come here to do - "earth" rules are probably much different than "universe" rules - what "we" hold near and dear could actually be a by- product of life and not the mission for which we came.

What are your "Ancestral Goblins" - have you looked at your beliefs and wondered "Why do I believe that?"  Did I get that belief from my family? my friends? society? Who is right?  

Is a good life story more important than the love you leave behind?   

Looking for a recording of this for my ringtone - but don't want to pay 10.00 a month for one paragraph - anybody know where I might find this?  xoxo

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

----from A Return to Love, by Marianne Williamson.