****** Projecting Neptune - The Great Dissolver ******

Having a Natal

  7th house Neptune

can be a challenge

(It takes many years to learn how to "work it")

 

I have survived much illusion net over the years

(or should I say disillusion)

It doesn't help that my Mercury is in Pisces and my Sun is in the 12th house

(Swimming in Spirit)

 

I am all Neptune/ all day

But this "hindrance" is actually one of my greatest gifts...

 when used for the light

 :)

Yes it can be scary,

because I can be somewhere like

"Disney World" 

And be drawn to the only person who is ready to punch someone out....

 

But I am like the pin that pops the balloon

Just by walking past them they explode

And they are better :)

A reader once told me

" I activate people just by walking by them at Wal-Mart"

(I didn't really understand - but I am beginning to now)

I project dissolution of obstacle, 

I project love and kindness,

I project "Most Benevolent Outcome"

"MBO"

People "poo-poo" me because I preach love

People "poo-poo" me because I preach forgiveness

People "poo-poo" me because I preach compassion

When in the end that is really all there is... 

"Control is an "Earth Game"

(I know we are on Earth - but do we have to be animals?)

NEPTUNE when used correctly can be a valuable tool from the Divine

****** ^^j^^ ****** Projecting Neptune Channel 24/7 ****** ^^j^^ ******

Let's see what the cards say for today:

(I project their meanings for the light too - MBO)

Well perseverance, celebration and having faith in life...

WELL, OK THAN...

xoxo Spreading the love today xoxo



{{{ Birds Again }}}

At my recent 

"Drum Circle Experience"

I was introduced to 

"Young Living Essential Oils"

I have used 

Plant oils

For awhile...

Lavender, rosemary, peppermint etc...

But I will agree that

YLEO

Are the highest grade of oils I have ever used.

As much as I try to not rely on 

"Earth Tools"

Crystals, oils, etc...

And only on spirit to guide me...

I am continuously brought back to earth tools?

Story time:

I was listening to a recorded show on the use of 

"Frankenscence"

Where the girl had a bird fly into her window, 

She went out and put a few drops of Frankenscence 

On. The bird, it recovered and flew away...

The next week I had a small ground finch fly into my window,

I followed suit with Frankenscence...

The little finch did recover from its "stunning" experience,

I said:

"I have done all I know fly away if you can"

And it did :)

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Today a Cardinal flew into my house, 

No Fankenscence for him, 

He was gone in an instant, to the other side.

Death is always a mystery to me...

A transition

What was his message?

To me the cardinal is the mother, 

Also associated with the patriarchy of society.

I wrapped up my little friend and laid him at the feet of my 

Blessed Mother Statue

^j^

Looking for answers,

When only time will tell

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxox ^j^ xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

So I pulled a few cards to clarify:

Moon - releasing fears and anxieties 

Death - (#13 Divine Feminine) transition

Star - Hope and inspiration 

"Release your fears to transition into HOPE"

Now that's a four letter word I can relate to :)

Christmas Visitors

I usually get Blue Jays, Cardinals, Sparrows, Ground finches, a few crows ( if I offer coconut cookies) 

A flock of blackbirds have found my bird feeders in the snowy Midwest...

Drum circle visions

I went to a drum circle, 

As you can see I am more of a 

"Doodler"

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Doodle

Than an artist

Yet, I keep trying :)

Xoxo

Xoxo The Journey to Mother xoxo

^*^ CHANGES in LIFE LIKE THE SEASONS ^*^

Can you feel the changes upon us?

Is it the just change of the seasons,

from summer into fall?

(soon into winter)

The dying of the old

Only to be re-birthed in the spring?

I have many minor changes occurring in my life.

Minor inconveniences, 

Broken phone, 

Broken plans, 

Last minute plans -  that turn out to be excellent...

Last week for the new moon solar eclipse

I was invited to a drumming circle 

I knew about this drumming circle for years

But I always "resisted" going... 

I needed to grow into my soul,

 to attend this profound group of women

And journey to the underworld to heal...

my old group of wise women

 are all going their own way...

I guess it was time...

but I hold on to things/people - forever....

It was a wonderful journey through the. Meadow, 

Into the Forrest,

 into Mother Earth herself...

and then she took me to the stars

******

Many ancestors, guides and souls came with us, 

We were well supported in our journey.

I am letting go of the things,

 I can no longer control

Release , surrender, forgive...

Some days are harder than others...

But in love,

 all things are possible

Xoxo

With love,

 all things are possible...

See I guess I am not 

"Failing the Enlightenment Test"

I am burning off the fluff, 

The fire of my soul... 

Burns like a purifying flame on my life...

Not quitting my day job

 xoxo

Doubling down for the winter

Xoxox

XOXO   Practicing the Art of Self Compassion   XOXO

Blessings to you... 

May you find peace, joy and light on Earth School

(November 8, 2013 )

* ^j^ * Failing the Enlightenment Test * ^j^ *

So as I sit here contemplating my life,

(10/29/13)

or should I say lack of life.
(Transiting Jupiter 20 degrees on my natal moon) 

Still smarting from the continued lashing of Scorpio,  

through my 7th house...

Unfortunately I have once again built my life,

on a "Weak Foundation"

It is not a satisfying life...

I am

"Failing the Enlightenment Test"...

I am much better as the vain, shallow, self destructive, woman....

But how do you let go?...

I think I have asked this question before...

And now here I am asking that same question again...

See...

 I am

 "Failing the Enlightenment Test"...

Everyone is aggravating the

 fuck out of me

Lying to me,

 avoiding me,

 running with scissors,

 losing their jobs,

 punching themselves in the head,

 having fun....

 But not me..

I think I am going to have to quit my day job

 and find a new one...

Far, far away...

What do you do when your employer has to be reminded to pay you?

When you speak people don't listen,

 or get mad that you have the nerve to think of something besides them?

I was told  things will be better,

 by next summer...

Ha - by the looks of things  - we'll see

It is funny when everyone who points at you and calls you selfish...

Has more stuff...

Money...

Fun... 

While you sit there feeling like you have 

"Failed the Enlightenment Test "

May you find peace and knowledge during your term at earth school my friends

P.S. I know the pity pot is not a pretty spot...

Are you passing the

"ENLIGHTENMENT TEST"

(from: http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/enlightenment)

en·light·en·ment

noun \in-ˈlī-t^ən-mənt, en-\

: the state of having knowledge or understanding : the act of giving someone knowledge or understanding
the Enlightenment : a movement of the 18th century that stressed the belief that science and logic give people more knowledge and understanding than tradition and religion

Buddhism : a final spiritual state marked by the absence of desire or suffering

Xoxo

*** Scorpio Cancer Pisces - this morning I was drowning in water

So grieving the loss of "Tom Tom"

The spewing of frustration from relatives

The injustices of the spying of the NSA

The peril of Dolphins and Whales, 

What can I - Do to help?

I have no money to help....

So I pray, 

But like everyone who prays and questions...
 

You wonder,
"Does it help"?

Yes, the "god" people always say "yes"...

I have felt a small tinges of  

Dare I say it,

"HOPE"

I think the "HOPE" will come, 

For the people, animals, earth, fish, & sea mammals

The "HOPE" will come when enough people wake up...

Today was family rough,

Faith rough, 

I had to take the day off.. 

I could not "tune in" today, 

Some yoga, some TV

Some meditation

You cannot,

I cannot,

Be "on" all the time...

We must all find a better way,
"TO BE"

I know people will argue, 

But really, 

If it's not hurting someone else

(Such as the dark arts)
 

All religion is the same... 

Some have a broader viewpoint and some a narrower one.

If you think only "yours" gets the golden ticket,
 you are sadly mistaken..

Let there be peace on earth and let it begin with me...

I am sick of being bombarded with unenlightened bullshit...

I guess today is just to watery.

Peace be with you 

(written Friday 10/25/13)