Divine Feminine & Forgiveness

Anyone who knows me or has read my blog posts know that I am transformed in the water of my bath - I really should have a hot tub - but then again -  I may never get out...  :)

Lying in a steaming tub of water, add a pinch of salt, some lavender oil, maybe some rose oil, red holy candles to bring in the divine feminine - add the new moon and Venus in Pisces - I can achieve a sensitive state protected by the water from the harshness of the world - truly connected to the Divine Feminine, back to the elemental realms, Gaia,  moving through the Divine feminine linage from the lady of the lake, the Magdalene's, through the ages - all connected through the water....  now I must temper this with forgiveness - because it stirs such a anger inside my soul - the treatment of women through the ages - sending pink light of love - sending trust and forgiveness.  Forgiveness, Forgiveness, the harshness of earth needs love and forgiveness - oneness....

I have had many readings over the years - I think my next one - for my next birthday will focus on how I fit into the story of the holy family...  After reading Kathleen McGowan's books - I wonder how I fit into all of this story - as I remember running through the town - barefoot, hair long and down, a white plain dress, such a feeling of peace being with Jesus and Mary - which Mary - I am not sure of - being a Mary myself I have always felt I was a "Mary" many times before.  I do not have memories of the "Crucifixion" - I have always hated Easter and was traumatized by the church as a child, to act as the "Angry Mob" during the masses - yuk - yuk - yuk ....  Forgiveness, Forgiveness, Forgiveness - but ....   do they deserve it - the church who covered up the other half of the story - because ....... ??????  Is that what evil really is?  A person driven strictly by Ego and Fear - trying to control...  the truth from getting out...  Sending Love, Love, Love  and Forgiveness, Forgiveness, Forgiveness .....  I am truly a gentle soul - when pushed to the brink I will withdraw rather than draw blood in this lifetime.... 96% of the time - there have been times when threatened I have reacted - but mostly I just let it slide - letting the rest of the world catch up to me... :)   I have always been as I am - but I have not always remembered who that is - I have been blessed with great guides along the way - both on earth and in spirit;  Always bringing me back to love -  "The Time Returns "....

Sanctuary

In reflecting on finding my way in this world; I look to how I surround myself in my everyday life.  As I sit in my room - as this is the room that most reflect "Me" - one wall is covered with original artwork by my daughter and another corner (my wealth sector of the house) is a small shrine to the ascended masters who help me on a daily basis.  As I type this, doves sit out in the trees over looking the river - huddled there always lending their peaceful presence to my life; while the small birds all gather in the bushes around my home.  This piece of land is truly magical and I am very lucky and grateful to be a part of it all.   Last week I had a Reiki session with my friend - who also did the Mandala in the top picture - she was doing some clearing and said my heart chakra was closing and my new 5D heart chakra was opening - she connected all my lower chakras with my new heart chakra up lifting my presence here and now on this planet.  As the new moon in Aquarius approaches I wonder what it will bring, I set my intentions and read my horoscopes - wondering how it will all play out.
Here's what one of my favorite upbeat astrologers says...
THEME OF THE WEEK:It’s a New Moon in Aquarius! Mercury is also active now, indicating a busy week filled with interaction. Most notably, Mars begins a rare retrograde phase in Virgo, encouraging us to consider the wisest use of power and effective personal change. It will be a great week, enjoy!

ARIES (March 21-April 19):An interaction with a friend has a life changing effect. Through the conversation, a light bulb goes off in your mind, bringing sense to a long-confusing matter. The clarity reaches into your heart and brings you peace. With new information, you take a step into the future.

TAURUS (April 20-May 20):You have a knack for impressing authority figures now. You might not be comfortable with the boastful approach you’re asked to take at the start of the week, but it does lead to a career break. You are celebrating a new start with the achievement of a major goal.

(This is from her website : http://www.symbolicliving.com/weekly-astrology-horoscope-forecasts-january-22-28-2012/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+SymbolicLiving+%28Symbolic+Living%29)

As an Aries with my progressions I am currently a Taurus - I wonder what the achievement of a major goal will be?  I will keep you in the loop :)

Venus in Pisces is Coming

I realized today that I have not posted since 1/1/12 - Dang how time flies....

I am not really sure how I feel these days - been doing a lot of clearing and I have been agitated on most days - and unable to write about much - it is taking a lot of energy just processing "planet earth" these days.  But I still read quite a bit - my main focus is usually astrology - as a 12th house Venus ? (retrograded so far back I could be in Atlantis -28 degrees) - and Venus moving into Pisces - the house of "all things hidden"   -  the 12th house - Venus is also a gift giver - and of course LOVE - so I am expecting some sort of spiritual gift and I have already sent gratitude for this gift - before I even know what it is - as I am sure it will be for my highest good and soul's growth.  My ego does not always recognize the gifts the universe bestows upon me - as an Aries my ego is very touchy - (LOL)  it always wants the attention, hates pain and suffering, and loves destruction :(

But that's another story - "My Ego" could be another day this is about my progressed birth chart - see the 9 - 3 positions on a clock - the AS/DS -  I have Jupiter riding the AS line at 9 o'clock all the way over to Saturn holding up the DS Line - now Saturn is strong and in Libra it is holding up the balance - Abundance vs responsibility - it will be interesting to see what transpires...




On a side Note :  I always watch www.davidcammegh.com on "You Tube" I like his horoscopes - and he is radical - all the things an Aries loves :)  I left a comment on last weeks Aries and this is his response to me - 
I only wish I had the same faith that changing the President would actually change the world ...

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WELCOME - WELCOME- ALL ARE WELCOME

Can't you just see the lady from poltergiest ?

Sometimes I feel like her - watching my children (the world) wrestle with the same issues I have been fighting my entire life -

So, today, January 1, 2012 - I have spent my day taking care of myself - doing my "feng shui" remedies to bring in peace, prosperity and love - setting them firmly in place and hearing God chuckle a bit.

It is finally 2012 - the awaited time - and yes - things are different - but still the same - I decided to take the day off and color - I miss my charmed ones - only one more week and back to business I go - but for now indulge me a bit and see what I did - ha ha - for those who like cave drawings - I am a master ")

Seeds of Intention - through the 12 Gates

A Walk with the Dog

An Angel Party

St Anthony's Day

Hard Aspects

Mandala

Soul

Vines

New Earth

I did the "New Earth" and the "Seeds" one today and worked on another one called "weeping"  but it's not done yet - a lot of detail and my Aries brain was running too fast to complete it.  So today I played and colored.

 What did you do?

In case anyone was wondering what medium I use ") - it is a mixture of Cray-pas and sharpies - LOL  - I am an "elemental artist" - unfortunately the Virgo (nit-picky perfectionist) in my chart -is in my 5th house of creativity and fun - so this is my best bet - I have never really tried painting, although I used to do ceramics - elementary school art is my only training. I love artists and their ability to do art and not think art - As I once asked an artist "how to do art" - they looked at me blankly and turned to talk to someone else.  I now understand it is not something you can explain - just feel....

Oy - Oy - Oyyyyyyy

As I sit here willing myself to get up and clean my house for 2012 - I think hummmmm - what do I envision for myself this coming year - then I think heck - nothing I (my ego) has envisioned for myself  in 2011 has happened - so I'm just going to go with the flow on this coming year - plan for some nice things and let it go - if it is meant to be, by the grace of God it will be.  Although my most important prayers have always been answered - my family is healthy, we are OK, I can  hear god, I am at peace....

As I begin to write this blog - 3 crows have come to sing me a song - the magic crows posess is amazing - so I gave them my wish for 2012 - abundance, good health, travel, time and love...

I spent this morning planning the next 2 years with me momma and me daughter - vacations - Ireland?  Rhinelander?  Florida?  all are in the works - and they will happen, by the grace of God - Mother and Father God....

My thoughts are kind of lazy this week - like my body - it is truly a time for reflection and letting go of all the expectations we put upon our selves.  I am at an in-between part of my life - unwilling to go back but unsure of my next step forward - so I will wait just a little bit longer - busy my hands with some menial work - and let my mind go silent...  for the next step is the step of divine inspiration awaits me - for those with ears to hear....

Peace to you this Holiday season -
 whether Jesus was a Pisces or a Capricorn - lol
(it seems Mary Magdalane was an Aries right on the cusp with plenty of Pisces to keep her connected to God.)
 We celebrate and honor this man who spoke only of love - being the highest expression to god... 

Let us all intend love for 2012 to all humans, animals, plants, water, earth, minerals, air, planets, stars, universe - even if for only one second of 2012 may we all feel it in complete synchroicity - the vibration of love xoxoxo

Staying in the Now

I love the frequency of the Christmas season - now when I say that you think - hey - it only comes once a year - right but no I mean the vibration of the season the "frequency" as in where you set your dial - as above so below....

Although yesterday, I feel off the wagon, and let myself slip into feeling sorry for myself - lonely and just plain sad.  I am like a great big "Tesla Generator" - the universe keeps showing me all these wonderful things to do, see, be....  but i am just stuck here watching my beautiful grandchildren - unable to tear myself away for fear I will miss something - I love them so much - I want to be there for them - yet I also want to do fun things - travel, take classes, hang around with high vibrational people.

 Back to "Tesla"  zap - zap - " A trip to Avalon"  shock - shock - zap - a trip to the pyramids - zap - shock - zap - CBR coaching classes - zap - shock - zap   ...  OK you get the idea...  There is so much to do - see - be in this world, I think I could do that - but do I really want to?  (Start this one whining.....)  But it costs a lot of money.......  (OK, stop whining)  hahahaha.  I know money is just energy - but I have become very selective on where I get energy from - which is probably a bad thing - I just want to make sure it is the right energy - (there I go judging again )- OK, maybe the right intentional energy - like when I worked at a bank and they were so greedy trying to get everyone buried in debt - so my branch could make their "numbers" - we can't lose focus of the intent.  OK I am rambling....  LOL

It is hard to look to the future - and stay in the present - I have been reading my 2012 horoscopes for the last week - first thing I check for is possible dates I may win lotto - LOL - but then I watch for dates of happiness and good energy - well it seems I will have those - but next years theme is "patience" argh - razafratza - man,  I thought someday this patience thing would finally be over - after all I am an Aries - so feeling very bummed out and somewhat disillusioned by all the work I have been doing on myself I decided to turn it over to my "circle of light".

As I laid in my bathtub - with no light but a red candle, Monks chanting healing words, I released all my expectations on what will be - and turned it over for guidance.  Just relax and release - maybe that's what patience really is - just knowing everything is going to be OK - no matter what - Que Sera, Sera
 - what every will be will be......   Sometimes what the universe has in store for us is better......

When I got out of the tub -  I went into the kitchen and there in my front yard was Buddha eating from the bird feeder - Buddha is a deer that comes to eat at my house sometimes - reminding me to be gentle, kind and loving - especially to myself... the universe is an abundant place and all energy you put out comes back around - even if it is bird food......

Oh and if you wanna have your own Tesla Generator check it out : http://howtobuildateslagenerator.com/articles/learn-how-to-build-a-tesla-generator-and-go-off-the-grid-forever/
Cool - ha

12 in 1 = 2012

"The Merkaba" - twelve gates of light around a center still point - "you"!!!! You are the conduit for the energy between the higher dimensions and earth - awaken starseeds - come into 2012 - bring your family of light with you - in love - in joy - in peace.

The illustration on the left is from http://www.newearthevolution.com/.

Meg Benedicte - is a starseed who uses vortex energy to access the 5D and beyond.  I love how well she articulates the energy - she is another awesome lightworker that I follow.

Through this merkaba I am seeding my intentions for 2012 - with of course divine energy, crystalline energy and locking it into the crystalline grid for earth gaia.  

The sacred geometry of 12 - now when ever anyone mentions the word - geometry - I break out in a cold sweat thinking - how am I every going to remember all those terms - just like Algebra it seems like a lot of work for something with a variable answer.  I prefer something with solid - measurable conclusions - but of course that is just my ego wanting to judge - and say "see your better" or "see they are better"...

So as I look back upon 2011 - my horoscopes given to me a year ago - did I achieve success?  Money?  Happiness?  Did I have an awesome year?  I would say I have attained "Happiness" - it was a human year - but I released a lot of darkness - now for next year $$$$, Travel, More me time and a higher vibrational living - I am look to these changes w/o harming anyone else and always for my highest good - a smooth transition

- Accepting and Surrendering to my Bliss-