What's Your Damage?

I do not usually quote Osho but this is on track for this posting....

"An explosive temper or a smoldering rage often masks a deep feeling of pain. We think that if we frighten people away, we can avoid being hurt even more. In fact, just the opposite is the case. By covering our wounds with armor we are preventing them from being healed. By lashing out at others we keep ourselves from getting the love and nourishment we need. It's time to stop fighting. There is so much love available to you if you just let it in. Start by forgiving yourself: you're worth it." ~ ♥ ~ Osho

We all have wounds that affect our perspective.  Either you deal with your wounds or your outside world becomes skewed and you become "crazy", "addicted", "self-loathing" - need I go on....  

*You are Damaged*

*We are all Damaged*

*Don't be afraid - you can heal *

Who were your role models?  Were they responsible?  Were they irresponsible?  Did they hurt you?  Your feelings?  Humans and feelings - another sense for us - but we can't put glasses on our feelings or an aid to help them feel better.  The human feeling system is the most undereducated system in our body...  It is fed by chemicals in our brain..  We become accustom to our "bad" feelings - but that is not the purpose of feelings.  Feelings are just that - if you let them filter through you and not hold on to each one that hurts you can recover from wounding.  You are not your feelings....  But you become your feelings if you do not let them out, love them, heal them. 

So what's your DAMAGE - did your mommy hurt your feelings?  Did your mommy or daddy not love you enough - Are you ready to GROW UP and quit letting everyone trigger you?  Are you ready to quit throwing temper tantrums?  

A good book for me was - Managing your Emotions- by Joyce Meyers, being raised a Catholic - I understood her concepts and now I may have taken a different spiritual path. I think she is still a viable option for the lost souls that walk this earth.

Amen sister - 

***Now Go fix your Damage... *** 

correctly of course - always in a non-violent manner - you must send it love - you must love the lessons, the people, the circumstances and let them go - you are no longer a doormat for the emotionally unstable - you are free to live your life - you deserve happiness xoxo...

Helpful? Muse? Annoying?

• • I am on FB a lot during the week Monday - Friday - mostly because I am a "GaGa" for 10 hours a day and sometimes I need to take a little "GaGa" moment and read what other adults are doing :)  I have recently gotten a few messages about my FB activity - so I am assuming I am spreading some love on FB xoxo - Maybe I should start an advice column on FB - of course I am always happy to share what I have learned in my journey or hook you up with someone who specializes in your dilemma....  

    It seems quite a few people need some "sunshine" in their lives...  ie.. "LOVE"....
    My formula for creating a loving atmosphere -
    
    1/ Chakra clearing music played at least once a day. 
    (A few of my favorites include Anodea Judith, Colette Baron Reid and Jonathon Goldman)
    
    2/ Get into your body at least once a day for at least 15 minutes a day - stretching, walking, spinning, running are all good or find your own.
    

    (I read that spinning counterclockwise - stare at your thumbs to keep from getting dizzy- will raise your vibration and help with your ascension process - 

    to ascend from the darkness of negativity into the light of 5D and beyond - )
    

    Bringers of the Dawn: Teachings from the Pleiadians by Barbara Marciniak 

    
    

    
    

    3/ Reading and surrounding yourself with uplifting material and people.  
    WEBSITES:
    - www.hayhouseradio.com
    www.soulsjourneyradio.com
    www.12listen.com
    http://www.Blogtalkradio.com/newearthcentral
    http://www.Blogtalkradio.com/starseed-radio-academy
    http://www.powerwithin.us 
    http://www.lifepathcenter.net
    http://ryogacenter.com
    http://soulgarden.me
    
    
    BOOKS/AUTHORS:
    Barbara Hand Clow
    Barbara Marciniak
    Doreen Virtue
    Cheryl Richardson
    Kathleen McGowan
    James Redfield
    Dan Millman
    Colette Baron Reid
    Mary Sparrowdancer
    
    
    of course these are just a few - you have to find some "hosts" that resonate with you and go from there - if you look for a teacher one will appear...
    I am Druidistic in my search for enlightenment - I take from all Buddha, Wicca, Hindu, Christians, outer-space -   astrology, numerology, Yoga... 
    
    4/ Taking long relaxing salt/oil baths with candles and meditation music.  
    This one is pretty self explanatory...  I use drops of lavender oil made by my friend at the "Lifepath Center" and the number of drops I use is the intention of my clearing...  Check out some numerology books - everything has meaning...  Don't get overwhelmed - most information you learn in this lifetime you have known before - so it comes back to you easily...
    
    5/ But most of all daily meditation - surrender to what is, envision how you want to feel and hand it over to be taken care of by God/Universe/Angels...
    
     ^j^ Prayer/Intention/Spells are all the same if done with love for the betterment of all ^j^

    
    
    

    So for now I leave you with a few FB comments/answers - I must be doing something right...  spreading the love - for all to feel... or just annoying my family a friends - LOL

    
    Some recent comments and replies:
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    • Hi Mary -  I'm one of your facebook friends. You found me, I don't know how, but ok...LOL. Mary can you help me, I'm sorry but I don't have any money. But for the past six years I've been living a stressful life, and I realize it's all in my head. I just need a little help with guidance. I want to change my life and I can't seem to find my footing. I don't want to go back to something that's going to put me in the same situation again. I'm really desperate right now and I'm asking for help to whom ever will listen. If you can help "great" if not that's fine also...it's still good to have you as a positive friend xoxox.
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    • I think everyone is feeling like you are right now - 2012 is a year of tremendous change - whether it's internal or external - most days I rely on my angels, guides, Jesus and Both Mary's to get me through. Time has sped up and continues until time spins out and is no more - I realize in this world of greed and materialism it is so hard to "BE" and not be in our head, fears, and worry - I will blog about this today or tomorrow - I have 4 babies today (4, 4, 3, 6 months) so I may not get a change to do a thoughtful blog - but prayer/meditation/ exercise (I do yoga - but I am by no means good at it  To change your life you must first change your thoughts (www.tut.com) , find a teacher - or ask for one and one will appear - and if I am that teacher (LOL) See you actually answered my prayer last night as I asked Jesus if I was just being silly - thinking and believing everything would be ok - funny how that works  You are my answered prayer 
      Fill your heart with love - find one thing you love unconditionally and FEEL it for 11 seconds (intention) - (22 seconds is better- it is a master builder number) or if you align yourself with the Mary's 13 seconds) but really it is just that you do it  try to do it 3x a day or more - build on love and you cannot go wrong, no matter how much your world falls apart - be safe, build on LOVE....
      Background info - not sure if you read my blog :
      http://mysecondlife-mes.blogspot.com/
      and my old blog which gives you a little bit of my background -http://myjupiteryear.blogspot.com/
      
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    • "Another FB Friend says....

      • hi Mary reading your post today oh my goodness you have made me feel so much better with your words I've felt trapped for 4 days i now feel cleansed thank you my friend x "

        
        

Never Can Say Good-Bye

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CCSvNZWpXaM


Is this our biggest asset or our curse?


Letting go - is one of the hardest things for many people...  I admit I also have a hard time with this - maybe not possessions - but people - yes def-definitely....

Do you have a hard time with this?

Can you say "Good-bye" ?

IRRELEVANT HA GFY!!!!

Logically, I know no one can make you feel irrelevant - but emotionally I have been feeling irrelevant.  I am sure it is because of a growing process I am moving through in these tumultuous times.  

I care for 4 little charmed ones - it is an important job - but all the perks of life on earth are not given to a person who cares for another soul....  I guess it's because the work being done is not of this earth - it is of a divine nature and cannot be measured in "human worth"  ....

I find myself resisting the urge to rejoin the world - yet also need certain things that unfortunately only money can buy - so, as I teeter between the 3D and 5D (and beyond) I guess relevance is only relevant if you perceive it to be....

Dilemma's, dilemma's, dilemma's - yes, I over-think most things - which is why an easy job is harder for me than a hard job...

I know most people as employees do not think  - is this right? Is this a moral company?  Is it just a matter of intention?  If you go to work, do your best, follow the rules, does your life "feel" better ?  People went to work in "concentration camps" - because they needed a job to feed their families, because they were afraid - I am not sure I want to re-enter the human work world - but what's the alternative?

I already have the world's perfect job :)

All around me my support people - are going crazy - obsessive, compulsive, I am actually the "sane one" -"scary" - huh  - maybe that's why I feel I must find a "job"... 

* Let it all go and see what comes back * 

One more thing - all the aggression that is coming off people - whew - make sure you are using your personal bubble/mirrors/ whatever your preferred method is - (mine is laughing at the person who is being aggressive - but I do not recommend that to most people - LOL  )

Even the animals are picking up some of this violent energy - DO YOUR PART  -  process your anger without hurting anyone/thing - scream, yell, sing loudly, keep processing ...

I Love You...

 ****xoxo****

P.s. GFY means.....

(Go F**k Yourself)

Mars is Direct finish the house

Today I was afforded the chance to reminisce at the house where I raised my children.  It is a small modular home in a small community.  The neighborhood is full of people raising families.  Next door there is a duplex - which always seems to attract humans in their rawest form - poor, addictions, kids - yet I can only smile when I see these people - for they are living their lives.  I do not think they realize how lucky they are.  They have their kids - all looking like ragamuffins - running free, playing with stray cats, riding their bikes up and down the sidewalk - happy in the moment. 

I thought back to the times of raising my own children there - and how I actually grew up there too.  It is a journey for everyone not just the kids.  The moms and dads are learning and growing too.  Yes, I had many days that were not great in that house - but now I choose to remember the good times, like watching the kids playing in the yard - digging holes - yes I know it's crazy but my kids used to love to dig holes in the yard - big holes (the yard was mostly sand then) jump in the holes, god only knows the games they imagined in that house, hiding 16 Easter baskets in 1020 sq feet is not small task - but I am a good mom (most of the time - well OK 50% of the time, LOL), Christmas mornings there in the beautiful tiny house - stuffed to the gills with junk. 

But what i remember most is my kids there, raising puppies there, being across the street from the school so I could see my kids - Location, location, location :)  So what makes a home a home - the energy in it.  We filled that house with love - for each other.....  It's still a great house - yes it is a "cheap House"  but you can have a good life in a cheap house full of love xoxo

Here's my recipe for a home take one mommy (and daddy) add four awesome souls throw in about four dogs for good measure and top it off with at least three cats, maybe a turtle or two add some obstacles to overcome = 's one house full of love - I can still feel it there...

"Under A Spell" Musings

success - how the outside world measures success is not true success - it is only material - material rots and decays while love lives on forever -

For example:  The Mercedes commercial - buy one to pass down to your kids - owning one makes you realize you are a success :(  How sad is that thought?  Although I will have to admit - when I watch that commercial my "Ego" says - Yes - I must have one of those shiny cars - I'm worth it....  I am becoming or just realizing how sensitive I actually am - I am not trying to push my agenda if it is not in my best interest - such as yesterday....  I walked into a place to apply for a part-time job - when I went to speak I had no voice - LOL  I guess my body was telling me - no - not this place - not yet - back on the bench - the coach says I'm not ready yet "something better this way comes"

As I wait in joyful expectation, full of gratitude for all i have - feng shui, spells - whatever you want to call it - Law of Attraction, prayer, L - O - V - E, song, intention......   enchantment  :)

"keywords on my mind"
 Mercedes - where is my cowboy - mars direct - dreams - importance - having the things I want/need - living true and expecting - job hunting - cutting up all karmic contracts, abundance, surrender

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April 6 2012 Full Moon

I have been feeling the Full Moon coming all week - crabby, on edge...  all the usual symptoms - and so have my "charmed ones".   Wednesday I had "mini me" over and she loves to draw cards from my decks - well actually she loves the little books in the box of cards - so after she went home with her momma I drew cards for myself and they weren't too shabby...  Now to put them into action - we have many blessings in our family xoxo

The first Card is "Business Venture" - trust and follow through on a new business idea or career opportunity - it has been coming to me from 4 different sources now to offer astrology readings and actually charge for them - LOL  I do readings for friends - but I always feel I am not good enough to charge - well I got my first "cash" client this week - wooo - hoooo 

The second card is "Blessed Change" A major life change brings you great blessings - I am not sure of that one - maybe it is with the one above :) Because as much as I "LOVE" change it is scary and I am pretty stubborn - LOL

The third card is "Happy Surprise" - something very good is about to happen - well that is always a great omen!!!!!! Plus it's from the unicorn deck so double smiles....

The fourth card is "Archangel Gabrielle" You have an important life purpose involving communication and the arts - Please don't allow insecurities to hold you back -I will help you....  I have had many readings to that effect, yet I am clueless to what this great destiny is - maybe it is just to be and love "Mary E Squires" xoxo  I think I'm going to need more help if it is anything bigger than that :)

******Love to you this full moon******